Merry Christmas

I have a conversation to this guy who I have been checking lately. I tend to think that his questions are simple but for the meantime why is it so hard to answer it directly? I answer him from my front mind but in the end I realize that I don’t even understand what I am saying. He’s like asking more whenever I answer him from the first one’s and then I end up thinking, asking to myself “what is it really? Hey I thought knew this!”

Anyway! one thing I got so sure of: I don’t want any "thing" as of now in this year. But well, five more days to go before new year :))

Procrastination is the thief of time

These RATIONALIZATIONS needs to be defeated.

1. "I'm more productive when I work under pressure, so I'm postponing all my work until the pressure builds up and then I'll get it done easily." hahaha
 
2. "I don't know how to do this problem, so I'm waiting until I know how before I do it."
 
3. "This task isn't getting done because I really don't want to do it. And that's the honest truth" amp
 
4. "Relax. The world isn't going to come to an end if this doesn't get done." yea right!
 
5. "This job is easier to do when I'm in the mood, and I'm simply not in the mood right now."wohoooo!! haha
 
6. "I waited until the last moment before and it worked out okay, so why not this time?"
 
7. "If I wait until the last minute, I won't spend so much time on it."
 
8. "If I do this work right now, I'll miss out on a once-in-a-lifetime social event."
 
9. "Circumstances beyond my control prevented me from doing so." oh gosh
 
10. "I've worked on this for so long that I have no interest or energy for it."

Just do it!

I learn to appreciate the fact that when a goal is too easy to attain, it is not as valuable as some "things" that takes your sweat and toil to reach. So hesitating to take a more difficult route than everyone else is taking will actually "sometimes" bear more. Some might get there faster or more easily, but they are not going to learn as much from the experience. And in the end, the whole journey will be rewarding. The new found pride from what you have done will feed or produce your confidence and get you noticed by the people who matters to you.

I just dont get it

1. Why i keep on checking this blog (at least once in two weeks) for what i know no one is really interested! =))

2. I joined a competition recently that will require a lot of time. (okay I’m willing to sacrifice the luxury of time) but how I wish it was just the time. Now I understand that it’s not that easy, contests like this will acquire you to be strong in any phases of psychological matters =)) But I’m pretty sure I can win this.

3. We all know that college sembreak is near to an end. I’m excited to go to school (himala!), know why?! Because I chose the wrong block section accidentally while enrolling. So stupid! That’s why I really have to go to school as soon as it opens because the adjustment period will be right on the starting of classes;

4. I have to be at that block! because of the schedule. Even if it’s earliest is in 7:30am (amp. pahirapan nanaman to!) basta I have to have it. because I need the extra time for midweek and weekends.

5. why are there some people who are willing to be dishonest just for the sake of prize money. Hahaha

6. The taller you are (height), the more less chances you will encounter poverty. lol

7. Why I can’t make any papers done (reaction, term, etc.) if it wasn’t still the day of the deadline? Really, i can’t think anything to write if I know there is still a 1 week ahead.

8. why I keep on applying a part-time job to the fact that it will be harder for me and should be committed to some things. :p

9. when it comes to projects assignments etc. i always end up doing the best layouts that i can do when i cram! is it normal? should i be happy for this? =)

I know i am

Introverted
Contrary to what most people think, an introvert is not simply a person who is shy. In fact, being shy has little to do with being an introvert! Shyness has an element of apprehension, nervousness and anxiety, and while an introvert may also be shy, introversion itself is not shyness. Basically, an introvert is a person who is energized by being alone and whose energy is drained by being around other people.

Introverts are more concerned with the inner world of the mind. They enjoy thinking, exploring their thoughts and feelings. They often avoid social situations because being around people drains their energy. This is true even if they have good social skills. After being with people for any length of time, such as at a party, they need time alone to "recharge."

When introverts want to be alone, it is not, by itself, a sign of depression. It means that they either need to regain their energy from being around people or that they simply want the time to be with their own thoughts. Being with people, even people they like and are comfortable with, can prevent them from their desire to be quietly introspective.

Being introspective, though, does not mean that an introvert never has conversations. However, those conversations are generally about ideas and concepts, not about what they consider the trivial matters of social small talk.

Ignorance

Isn't it sad that in our lives, we have to say goodbye to those we love and care about for some reasons we can’t barely explain. And no matter how you try to save the good old times. It wouldn't work. And the only right thing to do is to breakaway and let them go. Hiding yourself, for them to know how much pain you are willing to take just to make them proper, fine and happy.

Back to School

School is in the air and I’m still the student that I used to be. But this year I’m more excited about it. Dahil isang bwan din yatang parang sirang plaka ang buhay ko. You know, when you wake up in the morning maybe 11:59 am and you will eat and then watch t.v, too bad hindi ako nakakatagal sa t.v, so I just have to find anything else that can pass my time by. So when im done in that, I will sleep again. And then when I wake up it’s snack time! Afterwards watch t.v lol! until I catch my sleepy eyes so it’s time to lie on my bed। Araw-araw ganon! Yes! Hindi ako umaalis ng bahay.


So that’s why I’m still happy that im back to school even if I found out that all of my major subjects can make me so pressured. Hindi ako nagsisisi na na-excite ako. Hahaha. And one thing, these days parang ang gaan ng buhay, wala akong personal problems. Hahaha. But I know, I just have to cherish this. hehe

Quoted

Despite being an annoyance, i still believe that someone would be be brave enough to face the monster in me and would just hug me tight when i'm about to mutate

Worthy Heartbreak

Love -this can't be define in such a hurry even if everyone else is in the feeling upon it.

everyone else- my parents, my classmates, my friends.

I remember how a classmate got emotional, when she and her bf for years had separated. Looking at her seems so hurt and depressed, as if she will never get through; or as if she will never move on.

I also remember a friend who got accidentally in love to a guy that was just a fling. It took a long time for her to get through; before she learned that it was just a fling.

takes a long time- as in long. for a fling...it's not worth it

The days when their emotions are good as new, i am there. But what will I say? I don't have any idea in feelings like this. I am aware, but i never experienced it. All I can do is to make them feel better. If they could just sum up all that I say, it is simple like this: "Let him go"

That would be all I have to say, LOL. What can i do? I have nothing to do! I don't know anything about it.

Now I know why I am not experiencing issues like this; Of all the broken hearted stories I heard from the people around me , i learned. and that maybe the reason why i am so aware. I refused when i know i'm in the entrance door of emotional attachment. And that maybe my weakness; To be emotionally attached.

Luckily, no one still caught it until now.

I know it's not good. I know i have to know this emotions on my own. It's a part of life. Right?

Not accomodating or letting things like this doesn't mean that i am afraid.

I'ts just that i think... I have to be less careful. haha

Survey

regrets?

nothing

most influential people to you?

mothers

favorite food?

anything that was grilled

corniest people for you?

those who post their “emotional love affair” in friendster =))

who do you want to be?

Giselle bundchen. haha

what will you do if you turned back 10 yrs ago?

I should have been a vegetarian. haha

what makes you laugh/ smile?

anything unusual. anything that was caught in the act =))

what makes you insulted?

goodbyes without any permission.

what makes you inspired?

love ones. lol

what makes you perspire?

^???? =))))

what makes you strong?

I am emotionally restrained

your dream destination?

any remote islands. amanpulo, as of now ^_^

your dream property?

“the world” - (it is a man made islands) and spratley islands. atleast one. hahaha

your worst behavior?

walang paninindigan. hahaha

your behavior?

not constant.

your hidden talent?

passing without studying. LOL.

your guilty pleasures?

food. fast food chains just to be exact!

your worst habit?

cigarettes

your weirdest thing you said, but not really?

“mom, can we not attend the graduation? (hs), I’m lazy and we have nothing to do” =))

your paradox that can’t be changed?

the world is too big while life is too short. everybody wants to be in heaven but nobody wants to come first.

you’ll die if?

I don’t have money

you cannot?

eat anything exotic except balot and isaw =))

you hate..?

LIARS

Thurs-Fri

Today is Friday and I did not make it yesterday (blogged) because I’ve been to St. Jude church right after class; just beside Malacañang Palace in the middle of Mendiola (Manila). It’s my first time visiting this church, that’s why i have my wish. LOL.

This place makes me smile, this church was visited and being crowded of almost college students. It's so funny when we are just about to go home, the guards are putting some metal bars with stitches of torned metal wires along our way. Some people ask the guards why and how we're gonna get through, then they say there would be having a rally; as this church is just beside Malacañang Palace. Hmm... no wonder why the universities along Mendiola have no classes during major rallies =)) (swerte? Hehe) so we just have to jump over the barriers beside us so we could get to the other side of the street to exit.

By the way, its raining hard outside i’m so happy! I'm going back to Laguna na! I’m already dying to go home since yesterday! It's been a long week for me in school and there were so many things that I have studied. But anyway, its so nice! I always got the highest score in quizzes this week. But U really want to go home na =( ang init dito sa maynila, and my wallet is already crying for some help!

heart

Just when you thought he's the perfect person for you,

all of a sudden you will realize that he's not
he might be what you wished for but maybe..

just maybe,

God made you know him for a certain reason...

but not the reason you wished for.

Summer

I never thought that summer classes will turnout just like this. Fun! No assignments and projects whatsoever, only quizzes. Then same allowance will be given to you. Haha. And of course the luxury of time being alone, you have the privilege to think where you will spend the rest of the day.

I only have 1 subject to take for summer. Hmm.. not to mention the heat of the sun. Arrggh. I really hate sunny days, it makes me sick. And the rushing of the lessons. We have to be through in all of this in just 5weeks. Also, everyday quiz!

But it’s okay.. no stress attached :) I just like the way that I have something to do in these days they call summer. ‘Cause really I don’t love summer vacations just like anybody else; I’d rather got to the beach every ‘ber months =)) not because of my skin will get dark, LOL. I just don’t like the feeling that I am heated. haha

But still, I have the whole month of may and 1st week of june. What else I would do? Hmm…