hinder

I wanted to be taken. I suddenly felt the urge of the future just freely crash into me. Maybe I’m just somehow being alarmed. I have frequent thoughts that maybe it could be great to belong to someone; that it would be fulfilling to finally let go of other possibilities and start learning being content.

I have to start reading books again, let go of other movies. I have nothing to do all day and yet, things that should matter are stalled. Nuisances are what I ought to accomplish.

I’ll give myself this whole month, then watch me I’ll be back on track. 

16 personalities

The urge to suddenly write struck and came out from nowhere. The only reason that I'm aware of is I am bored. I usually write whenever I feel strong emotions, and when I say I feel emotional, it is limited in the barriers of being mad and frustrated. It has to change.

Oh, and also whenever I finish reading a book. Because that's when writing in english is much more effortless.

Speaking of boredom, I took a personality test online. It's called 16 personalities that is based on Myers-Briggs theory. I took it several times in countless websites just to make sure. The results usually juggles between INTP and INTJ.

The two isn't that far from each other. But to equate it both, these personality types are the top-most logical and rational out of 16 personalities. Although, I have to agree I'm more of an INTP. INTJ is too stiff for me.

Well, the slogan of this test is “It’s so incredible to finally be understood”. And I agree; it's just that all this time, I thought all people knew that it is always best to rely all the time on reasons instead of emotions, but chooses not to. Now it makes much more sense that:

I am normally being judged as heartless ever since I was young.

I really hate it when emotions is being involved especially around workplaces, and I think it's unfair.

Being perceived as snob. I have much lesser energy on unnecessary conversations. But don't get me wrong, I do get along with people. But I can always tell the difference of forced interactions to necessary ones.

I can actually tell what I want, what I don't want and curse straight in the face, and won't stab you ever! But that is not how society works isn't it.

Sometimes I get tired of rubbing others' the wrong way without me knowing. I always think they are just being a 12 year old forever.

I find it really irrational if someone in authority instantly expects respect from the others.

I always think I'll be more effective in a leadership role.

Now I know why some people talks behind someone else's back, whenever they felt their emotions wasn't validated.

I don't think it's my fault though. Even up to now.

him and preferences

When I heard about you for the first time, I acted like I don't care (knowing it's from family members. I don't let them know my personal interest especially regarding this; as it will be taken for fun-against me at some point!). They've told me a few things, and the truth is there's a great deal of eagerness to meet you. 

First, how come I never heard about you before. Seems like the people closest to me knew you a long time ago. And I guess you already know; that in this town – it's a small world.

Second, I have a thing for older guys. As of this age, 7 years older is still young, my max is 15.

Third, I have been told you're handsome and you are single. How can someone be single at that age. I don't understand.

Fourth, maybe you're gay. I love gay. Maybe we can be friends

Fifth, we're probably the same height or smaller, possibly just a few cm. Either way, it's nothing new to the situations that I've been.

And sixth, that you are really good in what you do. Keyword is real 'compassionate'

You know, I'm an introvert, I think a lot, and my values includes seeing things fairly. For me to see things fairly is to find out all perspectives available and let go of my biases there is. I see a bouquet of flowers and wonder am I the only one seeing a large ribbon with flowers (that's also being fair with the ribbon). So whatever! my mind is twisted, it's my instinct.

The point is, in having a few info about you beforehand; it is impossible for me not to be riveted.

And so the day comes, we've met. We're in our hospital room, and you will officially provide the treatment to my mother. I still remember that faded blue chuck taylor you're wearing, and I thought we have the same size (which is probably 6 or 6 and a half in Converse size).

Although we weren't formally introduced, I am surprised you are being grossed out of what you see. How do I know? It's all over your face. Wait, you should have been very used to this! Well, knowing that you are looking in an excessively vulgar open wound that smells, now I suppose that's understandable.

Yes, I was looking at you the whole time.

You were asked in front of me if you have kids, you uncomfortably answered you have three. And if you are married, you said it's just a matter of time. My interest dropped to zero. Faster than a snap of a finger.

First, I'm not interested with three kids. One is okay, in fact, it's great. Two is okay. Three is already out of the question.

Second, clearly you are committed. Although, I felt somehow she's kinda lucky. But whatever, I thought 'forget it', and atleast you're not gay. On the other hand, we can't be friends.

So I stopped staring at you and continued watching TV. I wasn't really watching, I just knew I have to stop staring and look away. I never did watch local TV actually, and this time you are smirking or smiling – and at that instance, you're the one looking at me, I'm confused.

Few days had passed and our talks are mandatory. I can sense you can be easily intimidated. You are confusingly like that –wayy more than the others! I don't know, maybe because in reality you are 2 inches smaller than me?

It's somehow inappropriate knowing I've already told about you to a few friends of mine. I actually did lie to one telling we're actually dating, or we've had dinner, something like that. But don't get me wrong, I'm far from delusional. I just used it to justify a lie I made from the past.

Sorry, you're the cover-up I came up with from the top of my head. Maybe because it's from all the online-stalking I did during that week. Which all started because you don't use facebook! So I've looked for your last name, your sister and mother showed up, even the charity that your family is supporting, I also found one of your assistant, and you definitely do like a lot of eating.

I promise it wouldn't have gone too far if you just simply use facebook.

Moreover, I found out you're fully single and only have one boy. I can prove that my social research is valid. Now, why is that doesn't match? Well, one way to confirm is through you, I know.

Within this year, I'll found out.

Farewell 2015

Kinda have a lot of free time for this year. Feels like I'm bound to have sleepless nights and long days anytime soon. Well, I really hope soon it will all make great sense to me.

A little putting up with some 'unreasonable new peep' but I don't want to get to that anymore. The important things is that miserable person is gone forever in my life.

In the good side, the rest of the free time are about family duties. Although I'm still accused of being selfish for quite some time. It's okay, I find it funny anyway.

Declines and dismissal. A lot of which unbelievably happened consecutively. But here I am still aspiring big time, I'm an immovable person with lots of enthusiasm making things happen. I learned I'm an optimist.

I prayed really hard during the morning of Christmas. Crying and asking for some sense. Now I wonder am I the only one praying in frustration asking things to have sense? A combination of gratitude for things learned, good and bad things happened, good motives and for making things happen.

I'm really looking forward for 2016. A great celestial move that will blow it all away! That maybe it's not really important for things to make sense anyway *smiles

trite

I do have a lot to write. Too many --I'm not sure where to start. It's been weeks since thoughts had been baffling me, coming to me like flood. Several good points had passed without keeping a record of it. But today, I'll try. And for the general idea of the first thought for this post, I'll give you this --“true love”.

Sounds real trite, dramatic; just like most of the contents of the things I'm about to say. But the truth is, most of us is blessed to have it from family and friends. I had been real dependent on that two for a long time now (probably I'm the longest single girl). The love I receive from these sources had always been enough for me to honestly think that maybe, there is no point to add more... Not until now.

I am totally used to being solitary. I am most comfortable on my own. Therefore, in order for me to be with someone, the presence of that 'someone' has to be better than my solitude. In fact, it's a great hassle to accommodate suitors at the same. So probably that 'someone' doesn't have to compete with anyone, but he has to compete with my comfort zones. 

Love is give and take (another trite) and I strongly believe in that. Family and friends loves us unconditionally (I agree that's how it's supposed to be). To be in a family whether it's blood or not, there is an unconscious compromise to each other in order for the unconditional “love” to work. I'm not saying you have to agree, but for me, real “love” comes with “compromise”, that's how I meant it for give and take.

So why add another “love”, when you know you have enough? To have the third compromise? Nah.

But don't get me wrong, I've tried to go through the process many times to make it real for me - I do date - have crushes - been there done that - had my heart broken - blah and blah. But none of all the romantic relationships that I had I sincerely wanted to last, whether it is serious or not. It's just for the sake of not missing the experience (It's kind of embarrassing to admit that).

Being heartbroken for me is synonymous to the term “disappointment”, that's how I plainly feel whenever I have one. You know, being heartbroken doesn't mean you are hurt because you are always planning it to last. To me, it hurts because the end I always knew had already came, here in front of me --'which will eventually pass, just give me some time'. *smiles

So you think it's selfish or terrible; and that is why one day I told myself I have to stop. That I won't allow myself to enter anything unless my intentions as a lady is also pure towards a person. On the other hand, I am proud to say It's been years since I've stood up for that. The sad part is, I haven't found it yet.

Sometimes I think that knowing exactly what I want makes finding it much more difficult. But my 'wants' aren't actually that plain like: handsome, rich, intelligent, polite and all that shit. I know exactly what I want because I know exactly what I can offer. That made me aware in being careful.

I can honestly accept a person whoever they are –as long as eventually It'll be reciprocated, I fully understand I can't make a good "team" on my own. It's just that, the thing that drives me off as always is the vibe from a man's initial intention of “testing the waters”. It makes me sick. In which I understand why most of them are. But it's one thing I can't barely tolerate. 

That is just the start. Probably the list of making it difficult could possibly be longer.  I can't stand in getting the intention of “testing the waters” because to me, it should be “I'm already here and willing, I'll wait and try if you want to get in”. Is it really that impossible? But I'm still being really patient, because it happened once, I still believe there's still is.

Men can't just “get to know the lady and let's see where my feelings in the course of one month is gonna take me” haha. Maybe it will work for some (I have nothing against that ---and those are girls though) but trust me men, you can do better than that. The key is to decide. Be a man, speak it up and own it. Yes, that's how it is being a man. Decide, wherever it takes you.

Whoever he is, how he looks, how he behaves, no matter how sensitive he is. That's the man I am patiently praying for. I don't want a boss, nor a peasant, I want to be with my equal. A man who takes on life just right ahead, right on his face (can naturally be emotional) but deals with it. He who deserves a respect worth of a lifetime. The love I want to have and give back. Me and him against the world, with the characteristics that is necessary. The quality of a life partner.

on the brighter side

To write once a week is a failure as there is a lot going on lately. I have no idea how strong I could be until I have to deal with everything in the past few weeks. You know I'm confident that the universe owes me a lot with all the condemnation I am receiving, and on the other hand I am thankful about the fact that I am still able to handle it gracefully and can still hasn't fail to find a reason to laugh about it. hahaha.


FAMILY
First, mother got hospitalized, as usual - just like how it can possibly be annually. Yes, she has a sickness which is not fatal but aren't curable really. So the least thing for her to do is to actually take her medications regularly and have a professional consultation monthly.

I do remind her about that, every month; and you know I'm not really the type who always have the excess energy on pushing or reminding someone to do something especially when I know they aren't willing enough. But it is my mother, she will always have the exception.

So the year started and how fast it could be we're already in the mid-year; yet, here we are being a hospital inpatient for almost a month now. 

I am so thankful my father can still rightly provide financially, is so understanding, and is truly good-hearted; knowing that my mother could be really unreasonable, manipulative (which I actually find funny - I love that about her). Important thing is we're all getting through (while an elder sibling is having some nervous breakdown attacks).

After all, we have a newborn in the family from my other elder sibling, safe out and fully healthy. So there's no reason for me to be totally next to my elder sibling who's having some 'attacks' haha.


WORK
I should be done somehow discussing about the fucking mocking and some "incomplete instructions-but when you're wrong-you'll be judged from it anyway" every friday from  'this' person that gives me the "so against my nature I want to stab you in the face" feeling.

I am trying to understand this guy for months now and that is not just every end of work week -but everyday. Now I'm glad I decided to put up with it somehow. I'm not saying that I am totally getting him now (I'm still in awe with all the unecessary crap that comes out of his mouth) but I realized I am also just equally annoying him in a different way (my own way) at the same time. So I should call it quits. haha.

It's not like I'm doing in purpose to annoy him back (atleast not most of the time). It's just that this guy can be easily REALLY annoyed like;

i. when you ask him the same question more than twice (even when the first one was more than a week ago)
ii. when he knows that the question can be gotten from another source
iii. when he already told me something, and I forgot
iv. when I did something for more than the 2nd time and it is still wrong (hahaha)
v. when something is really unorganized (well, in his own standards)

I mean who has the time to be totally consumed by those? I can't believe this guy is actually unknowingly wasting his attention on those. hahaha.

Good thing is, I can see the annoyance in his face (which I always prefer from people) instead of being backstabbed, (although I know he does that too). Well, yes, I'm both being backstabbed and at the same time being judged right in front my face. so whatever! now I find it funny. hahahaha

I asked this guy to be more detailed with his instructions, and I'm glad seeing that at least, he is trying. I can tell he's being more patient too. If only he just knew that my intentions are pure in wanting to help him more. 

I just can't right now as much as I want to, because I have to equalize my emotional and mental state in all areas of my life. I have to keep track or take care of myself and keep my sanity. You know it's a thing you can't just explain to others even if it's with closest friends.

Did I mention I am also broke? I can't literally afford anything right now as my income capacity has been downgraded since I decided to move on from working in the land-based casino. Shit, ugggh. Well, I know it's a thing I have to compromise to have what I want someday.

To finally end my whining about this guy, I have to admit I kinda like him. I find him really interesting. I never met someone who's all consumed with small things, who's so organized, who still works even when he's on leave, who can point out faults even when he also has the deficiency on his part, who's so unfair, moody and stubborn? (without him realizing it) I actually find him funny. I see myself on him when I was 12. 

The kind-of-garbage character is so unique that's why I actually want to be friends with him. I want it to be more than professional, because this kind of guy isn't actually the type who will feel ashamed in front of you, which is authentic, it's REAL, you'll think he can't be too serious with all the insulting shit he says - but it is happening. But ofcourse it is never gonna happen because I will never do the first move ever. I just think it would be great to have a non-professional kind of conversation to this guy where I can be myself just to satisfy my curiosity in discovering his unique crappy thoughts. haha

I just want

I am suppose to write a becoming trend of events during Fridays, but I won't. I am also suppose to write what I really should have said back to people earlier, but I won't. I don't want to be in my most expressive state just because I feel like shit.

I just want to have millions of money, so that I won't have to put up with something that drains me; or put up with something that is against my nature.

I need to have someone who won't judge me, who will always be there; who I can trust; who I can be with at the end of an exhausting day. I know I'll have it and deserves it, because I am willing to do that for someone too.

I want to be an X-men mutant with teleportation powers, so that i'll have more time within a day to spend with people who matters.

I just want everyone to be happy. So that everyone can respect each other rightly. I will never want to hurt anyone nor will be interested with their thoughts; because I know I'm an introverted-diplomatic woman and I like it this way.

I have never attempted to alter other's opinions. I assume everyone knows that they owe themselves to have an open mind. I always make a way to myself in order for me to understand others. I usually agree even if it is against my values. I am a good person who's not afraid to be judged, who's always sincere, who's intention is to respect so that I could meet everyone half way.

I just wish everyone will the do the same too. So that at some point I know that i'm doing it right for others.

hot or cold

I've been feeling a lot of ups and downs lately. A clear intuition of pure black and white that shifts in a hand span of a time.

A new one had arrived who seems too good to be true. Tall, above normal endearing physical presence, probably clever. Obviously, my eyes are enthralled. Not physically, but on what my eyes can see through it.

I am thrilled knowing that somehow, an almost same age opposite sex isn't initially intimidated by my strange presence (that is actually nothing harmless). Although I can still sense that there's still a bit of that (I can tell the hands are fidgeting sometimes haha). But at the same time, I am surprised as this person can actually point out faults into my face critically.

It was so interesting. It's been a long time to encounter such a direct action towards me, I almost thought there's actually none who can be. You know, the only person who can be like that to me is my mother; some teachers from high school (lol); next is the closest friends -friends whom I count decades with.

But it's something professional, not even friends. Saying that means I can't just actually plot revenge, and be sarcastically-awesome like I always been. I have to remind myself (whenever I feel annoyed) that this is what I actually prefer in this life area as it perfectly matches my natural being.

Yes, annoyed too. See? the shifting of the reactions above? Trust me, I am equally puzzled in the last few weeks. 

So what do I see through? Nothing. Seriously, it's too direct I can't even tell if I am really being respected or belittled, challenged or being constructively criticized. WHAT THE FUCK is HAPPENING? So annoying! This is so not me.. 

But I'll figure this out. I'll just have to be patient (like REALLY patient to the point that I have to compromise my image of being a fool! Argh!); as I will reserve one day for this person in the future to make a point that all this time he actually have no idea that there's a thin line between being an asshole and sassy, a line which I actually cross everyday; and truth is, you actually need to think twice to level up your authenticity in front of me; because I am more than willing to give it back to you for a very long time now!

as of now

I attained something I've always wanted only to realize it's not the right time. I did everything carefully and did the right planning. However, after keeping up with it I found everyday the most difficult - Too exhausted at the end of the day. Which ended up with the decision in giving myself a break, letting all the consequences break; in exchange of the much time I truly need. 

Months had passed and looking back, I couldn't agree more with the decision that I made. But I still do have consequences to face. It's starting to sink in, I'm creating barriers against it with all of my ability, but none of it is working (at least as of now).

I learned the relational importance of timing and opportunities. Two different things you can't just force as it doesn't usually come together. 

take it all out

I know I speak too simple and plain which appears to be very direct. I can be very defensive about being dominated too because I am more than well aware about betrayals of worst kinds in a workplace; I fully understand that politics in a workplace is normal, shouldn't be offensive and nothing personal; which I do take as a strength of mine.

If it's making you uncomfortable, intimidated, you are no different with those who can't comprehend a very simple non-sugarcoated words where everyone in this world is used to. I'll say you're just one of those typical weak-judgmental heads I've had encountered who regards confrontation as a bad trait. Coward.

To have a better understanding especially about other people, you ask. If you chose not to, then don't judge. How come you do waste your own energy about others who has nothing to do with you? And how the fuck you people can find a time talking behind someone's back? Respect that some people are reserved. People who refused to be like a bunch of mediocre-predictable people like you.

I'm so tired dealing with too much vulnerability, who can't handle simple honesty and shit. I've tried adjusting many-many times, because maybe it just happened that most of you haven’t grasped yet that work is work, nothing is personal. 
 
It exhausts me every end of the day, because what it means to me is a total downplay believing it is better to remain silent than to speak myself; which will eventually get me right back where I’ve started thinking "i can’t be in a place where I can’t be me, I'll be a total package of a silent-underestimated fool. I should be working in somewhere other than Manila where people has a whole garbage brain made of extreme sensitivity."

And to summarize the text above, it will be just like this:

Who else among us who prefers this world to be simpler? I'm starting to think it can only be me.

being done

I’ll write anything I want.  No points and coherence. I’ll decide what it will have to be, just wanting to have my way for once.

I’ll tell you something, we all want to have what we think we deserve, but you will not be aware of it unless you already know you’re getting some that you don’t. I’ll refuse, and always will be. I would rather have nothing.

The intention of thinking positively, to not hurt others, to have faith and to ask for mercy – what does it mean? You get the finest opposite of it in return anyway. Frustrations, disappointments, betrayal and judgments – we’ll endure. But you have to do something before it poisons the soul; before the sense of fighting for yourself to make this world a beautiful place to live-- be gone.

Rock bottom, I surrender.  After everything through, I don’t know what I know anymore. The time is up, I was strong, incorrigible for it to happen. I have lifted everything to you. When is the time to understand all of this? The world has bigger problems, still, I’m keeping my hopes up, the only one I’m holding on to. Doubting to whom and whom?  Are the demands really that high. Are the abilities really that low.

Probably, I just want to climb a mountain, sweat like I have never been before. Going up high screaming my lungs out, enjoying the sound of the wind and water; seeing morning sunlight in a very cool weather. I would love to breathe a fresh air, in a night with a very visible stars shining in its best, to the point I’ll be certain that tomorrow will be the brightest sunny day I could ever witness.

who do you think you are?

Aside from bragging, when someone demonstrates regards to themselves, the only differences we can think of is that they might just be being proud, ambitious and being real or inspirational.

In fact, most people do believe that the only thing worse than bragging, is being falsely modest. But, there were “actions” that separates “building an impression".

THE MANIFESTOS we're mostly aware of:

• Statement about him/her self that’s obvious, and assuming everyone's aware about it.
• Someone or everyone included in the situation was affected/offended by his/her actions.
• The bragging DOESN’T have any purpose, AT ALL.
• Pushing an idea or opinion to someone that is obviously “rationally unjust” OR not claiming his/her own fault and still being defensive about it.
• Claiming and accusing people that they are jealous to them.
• Assertion of something they didn’t truly earn and at the same time “bragging and claiming a part of it” (example: obtaining a house, car, managing a business that is actually provided by the parents)
• The info that the person is bragging about is false.

IF YOU THINK YOU ARE ONE MENTIONED ABOVE, READ FUTHER...

It’s okay, part of your beliefs, mistakes and individuality, respect from others is your birth right. But then anyone can roll their eyes every time they will encounter you. In most that I have seen, they will handle it in:

1. Letting it pass (which I always do especially if it’s in work)
2. Being “subtle” for the avenge comeback. And for some;
3. Well, bringing back what they’ve felt in a much worse form or double.

For the 3rd statement, why? There were some who just can’t tolerate, even if they know the person who made them feel that way is unaware.

So if you think you're NOT entitled in receiving any backfire by acting superior in an unreasonable way, because you think you're something, then, who the fcuk! you think you are?

Yes, some people MIGHT wouldn't mind. But hey, even the President of the Philippines has his own opposition. Still then, why not you?

You can influence what other people think about you, but not the way how they feel.

NOW, WHO DO I THINK I AM?

Whether I’ll be or not “something” someday, I will always stay the same way.

It doesn’t mean that since you think you’re something for now, it’ll be valid acting superior to others, unless you’re truly the authority then maybe you deserve some. And even if your are! move on man! It’s not actually intimidating, it’s fcuking ANNOYING! Some people just don’t realize, isn’t it?

The way I’ve mentioned superiority and authority here in these situations are different. Every time I'll encounter it, I might just let it pass, because maybe you are just being unaware acting that way; while, I do CAN perceive it positively. But it’s now time for you to understand the difference of the two. And still, if you don’t, ponder this:

Whoever is your parents, friends;
Whatever job position that you have; and,
Whatever it is you think you are, face the consequences of only getting the politeness that you are paying for (don't be deceived - nothing more, nothing less)

OR..

FINE! for what you are claiming for... but not the RESPECT, HONOR or anything else AGAIN you THOUGHT you exclusively deserve. 

new learnings

When the world seems to be abusive
When the people around you can’t be trusted.

What are you gonna do?

Be fair and look at the positive side.

When the world seems to be abusive, you’re taking the responsibility to face unreasonable demands and deal with it. Remind yourself that an honest reason can’t go wrong and always valid. Emotions from them is not your responsibility, well, that is their turn to deal with it.

When the people around you can’t be trusted, then, focus on those people who have the trust in you.  If you still suspect about the trust you’re getting, give it some time. There’s only one truth and only time can provide the things you still have to realize.

Sad but true: some people may have your best interests at heart, but in the end their thoughts are based on their own gain not yours.

life

Dear Life,



Thank you for being missed for awhile. It happened for me to see the good side of everything. It’s not like I’m always used to have the things that I want before. But today, I’m more accurate to weigh the differences of my needs and wants. Now I know I am very blessed in every areas of my life. And it’s just getting better.

Today, I can say I’m getting back on track. I may still have no idea about you, but I’m already in you. Whether you’re in a wheel, I’m not for an upheld superficiality. I will always keep my toes in the ground, I will always live you, not to be an entertainment for others, because you are simply serene, content, alive and most of all REAL.

Talking about personal accomplishments is not my thing. I’ll deliver to others to see the whole truth and bring both sides of the coin.

Being an inspiration is a proof of your endless possibility. What is an inspiration without the downtime it has been through.



Love,

D

dopamine

I’ve read yesterday about the mind functions on how this kind of substance in our brain can affect our mood, motivation and decisions.

Dopamine naturally produced by your brain makes you feel good. You get a rush of dopamine in response to pleasurable activities. On the other hand, without enough dopamine, you may feel sluggish, depressed and uninterested in life. http://www.wikihow.com/Increase-Dopamine

Ever feel emotionally down for no reason? Then, trying your best to know why, by being alone so that you could focus more to what is it all about? Haha. It has also been said that dopamine can also be a big part of a person’s direction in life.

The more times you succeed at something, the longer your brain stores the information that will allow you to do well. That’s because with each success, our brain releases dopamine. When dopamine flows into the brain's reward pathway (the part responsible for pleasure, learning and motivation), we not only feel greater concentration but are inspired to re-experience the activity that caused the chemical release in the first place. http://ph.she.yahoo.com/why-brains-short-term-goals-150000141.html

I wonder what are the things left that most people haven’t know yet, that is actually very important to be included in our general knowledge. I mean, what if all along the humanity isn’t aware in any of this sneaky mind functions that are beyond what we can feel and imagine.

It's like finding out about your birth chart. What if you're a believer of the interpretation of it, but doesn’t really making any sense at all, because there are planets that hasn't been discovered yet. OR;
If you are not a believer of any god and disregards those who do; possibly, someday it will be proven by reason or science in the future. 

widespread acceptance of an idea is not a proof of its validity - D.B

The humanity’s judgement, OUR OWN opinions about other people, beliefs, religion, culture and differences might always just be temporary. 

Whichever kind of reason and rationalizations that agrees with science and latest facts that all of us will have to say, won’t actually be proven/DEFINITE unless everything has all been figured out; which I think will never happen.

No one actually knows best, who's being deceived and who's not regarding diversity. Our safest choice is to be OPEN.

Dopamine is just some of the things in nature that had gave the answer on one mystery of the universe, that the past generation isn’t lucky enough like us to know.

I believe that the world had accomplished a lot since it began... But yet, it’s young; people  are too early (AND always will be) to settle AND CLOSE towards a single belief in a course of a lifetime.