hinder

I wanted to be taken. I suddenly felt the urge of the future just freely crash into me. Maybe I’m just somehow being alarmed. I have frequent thoughts that maybe it could be great to belong to someone; that it would be fulfilling to finally let go of other possibilities and start learning being content.

I have to start reading books again, let go of other movies. I have nothing to do all day and yet, things that should matter are stalled. Nuisances are what I ought to accomplish.

I’ll give myself this whole month, then watch me I’ll be back on track. 

internalized

What was the thing that you did something for the first time in a long time?

I did almost caught a dream come true last April 20, and 3 days ago I’ve learned I was only 1 step short. It was depressing knowing it for the first hour. But unlike before (in dealing with the same scenario), knowing the difference of devastation and frustration is somewhat confusing in the first 2 days, at least.

I have tried several times to give up pursuing this dream; knowing as time passes by I have found new strengths, alternative opportunities. But now, I have to admit it’s still with me, much more than ever.  Instead, time had given me more reasons to pursue it. Not to mention the confidence in myself I have re-gained during the process, now I know I really can.

All along, what I know is I’m only enthusiastic about it because it’s the life I want to live for myself. But during the span of an hour, I’ve internalized my sadness much better for the first time in years: That dream come true is beneficial for the people that I love most. 

the comeback

I never had a plan to stop writing. I feel like the last post was only yesterday. I've done some back read and I am very glad I've recorded thoughts from years ago just like how we keep photographs. (by the way, I've failed to recover my pictures in the now defunct multiply.com. That's worth of 4 years of my life, I'm still frustrated about it). That's why I'm not gonna let that happen again; missing a thought without writing it.

From july 2013 (my birthday month), the universe had added two years in my age. To say that "a lot had happened" is underrated, but to describe it on its simplest, i'll say "nothing had actually stayed the same".

In detail, I have experienced losing something that I think is real and I have gone mad because it's out of my control. Then, I moved on; deviated to another plan, discovered a new strength and knowledge, and later on I decided to come back to what I think I deserve in the first place. And now here I am, not even halfway through, searching again for the next door.

I don't know if i'll be happy or not for the fact that I am very capable of moving on from the things I don't want to up with. Others will probably think that the situation is messed up, but looking back, I became an enthusiast of major changes, no fears. I have learned to see the beauty in new beginnings. 

Knowing the capability and having the privilege of doing so just when I feel like it is overwhelming. It's too easy and gotten used to it to the point I started thinking what if the real challenge is to put up to everything you don't want? That's how I think how privileged I am, because I've never done that -- putting up with something I don't want, to fear about an incoming end.Haha

Is it a measure of maturity? Taking responsibility of yourself as an adult?

I might have been 2 years older and never got matured enough, maybe LOL. But to take responsibility of yourself also means to cater what you need; to live up in the standards you want for yourself. Because if you can't give what you want for your own life and cannot get rid of the things you don't want, then who will do it for you? just you. 

You are the king, queen of your life, you are the boss. Do what you want anytime you want it! Don't limit your self, the life were living is ours.

So the challenge is to put up, I might be wrong, I might be right but it doesn't matter because i'll take it.

After having the next one :)

march 2k13

There were a lot of changes since the last time in everything of what I do. All I can say is, it is better - the best of what I can have right now based on my own standards. God is always watching, God is good. He never really lets us down.

The agile - creative mind in me had rose, straightforwardness and honesty has been put into use, and this time it is being recognized as useful. At least that’s what I believe it is.

I’m so thankful of everything. Looking back, a couple of months ago, I have lost an appetite for a dream, a lifelong plan that is no longer making me inspired. And a countless accomplished things that I don’t even desire. I can’t be in a place being rejected into something that my heart doesn’t even find valuable in the first place.

They say, it is better failing in something you do really want than achieving something you don’t fully desire, but then you'll end up losing it anyway. It’s not worth the pain.

Now, I have something to work hard for, someone to look up to, somewhere I could place myself in the future – letting go of the dead-ends and something to learn my mistakes from. Most of all, I have nothing to complain about.

Feels right, thankful.

New Year 2013

These were some of the thoughts that I remember I had during the span of 2012. It can be from a prayer, conversations, realizations or maybe anything I just heard somewhere that agrees with my own reason.  

And all of these, can always remind me that at some point: 

I had precisely known myself better. 

I can be aware on how others could possibly feel by avoiding something I have experienced before.

I can be stronger and empowered on my own.

• Progress basically starts with the cultivation of your own backbone.
• As long as I can walk on my own I could possibly go wherever I like.
• Explaining why you’re right, doesn’t mean you have to argue; and if you argue doesn't mean it will end up right.

• "Cut the BS and get to the damn point.", "Too much introduction"
• We’re human, anyone can be mean, liar, insensitive. But I'm not one of those who feels the need to be proud of it.
• The need to finalize the end of a bad relationship isn't necessary.

• The worst thing you can do to someone you barely even know is to underestimate their motivations.
• Sucks bigtime when you best believe you thought you've found something worth it.
• Bless me with discomfort so that I shall continue to aspire to higher places.

• Nothing ticks me off more than someone who thinks they are more important than everyone else. (and makes me think I'm reasonable enough to make the move to that person, to give back what everybody had felt from him/her... combined)
• I can ignore you so hard you will begin to doubt your own existence.
• Half the time I agree with people so they'll shut up.
• I’m only responsible for what I say, not for what you understand. And I do understand everyone has the same birth right.

• Can't you see? I warned you. If you take my advice rightly, it's not my gain. taking it wrong isn't my lost either but.. finding it out by yourself is the price to pay.
• Give me your heart make it real or else forget about it. (Smooth - Santana, Rob Thomas) 

• A ship in harbor is safe - but that is not what ships are for.  - John A. Shedd, Salt from My Attic  
• Nothing will ever be attempted, if all possible objections must be first overcome. -  Samuel Johnson, Rasselas, 1759

today

Today’s thoughts of cravings

Rainy day season in the Philippines – I LOVE this!

I want to watch “Tears For Fears With Per Sorensen Of Fra Lippo Lippi” Live in Manila, I’m such an oldie sometimes. And how many times do I have to miss certain concerts!! Just for the reason I want to pay tickets from my own money, not from my parents.

My food appetite is in a back drop. I’m eating too much less from the past couple days, I realize it’s the same guilt that I feel during the days of its contrary which I’m a glutton. So I strive to eat at least 1 meal a day. LOL

After being so much an avid fan of two Spider Man movies (Tobey Mgguire’s), and after watching Mona Lisa Smile, All Good Things, Crazy/Beautiful, The Virgin Suicides. I realize that Kirsten Dunst is truly my favorite actress.

I’m so STUCKED with Phillipines college basketball! CAN'T MOVE ON!!

I’ll go back working only if it’s my “goal” job. I’m not bored, I can survive with less allowance, no pressures and I’m turning 22 in a week. I’m going back working only if it’s the job that I preferred. I said it again.

I’m assuming this certain thing, putting all the possibilities from what I believed in. (I bet you don’t get it, you’ll read it again) haha

Want to buy a new phone. If not, get back my old lost phone! Lol. And I need a 500GB external hard drive and a new unit of internet router.

You know what? I think I’m still growing (height). Few more centimeters won’t hurt, right? I’m hoping that I really am.

I can’t say I’m religious. But I’m certainly becoming more catholic. I got the need of praying everyday and read verses in the bible, the need of visiting the church for the first time in some nearby towns I’m seldom been, and a collection of novenas.

Thought of the day: Never regret what you’ve done, not even the things you never done before. Because to do or not to do, the most credible reasons exist “as of that moment” (present), not in thinking how it might result in the future, even looking back at the past won’t help.

If Carl Jung says there are 5 Key Elements of Happiness (which I fully agree); for me it can be trim down to 3:

Finance Contentment for career and education

Health Excellent level of mental, emotional and physical health

Relationships Love in self, Happy family, Loyal friends, Marriage, Philosophical faith

I may miss some but, the most with a lot under is relationships in any forms. Maybe because without it, who needs “good” in the first two?

Well, just a thought.

the pledge of being done with it

Ever did jumping into something your first impression says to you it won’t ever last. That is what I traditionally do. No usual conversation, no demonstration of feelings, none conclusive evidence of what is the reason behind things that is done that should have a definite valid reason. Though I know that one; is a definition of a perfect stranger; with a manifesto you know in the first place you shouldn’t trust, and since I’m a very hard headed being (probably the reason why some people hated me), it’s the same reason why I stayed.

    The whole process is purely wondering, as it goes along, the unreasonable thoughts for the “goddamn thing why I’m still here” is just adding piles up. Only just for the benefit of spending time together, I know I was treated well; but I feel no concern, THAT was two different things.

The above statement was written for like “several” months ago. And to be honest, I’m not actually pertaining only to one person. It’s incredibly repeating by itself in different “instances”. I’m thinking for few persons that just happen I’ve been with them. Each of the instances are entirely different, name it: age, physique, the way they dress, the genre of music they prefer, the way they think, the food they eat, work, etcetera! Just name it!

They’re exactly different in everything, except for one: That word I don’t even want to mention. Only few people in my age have it and only few are willing for it.

Whatever that word is.. I have to work for it. Because I won't acquire anything like the childish game i wrote several months ago. Though it should mean nothing, I now found myself so bored for the wondering part. Things in that immature state are getting so predictable, in different situations but all clearly comes to end.

Waiting Day

This is before the Baccalaureate Mass. It was held in the FEU Ground. They actually allotted 2hrs for assembly time, but it seems it's not enough. For over 3000 attendance, arranged alphabetically per institute.

waiting for 3000 to find their seats.

After mass, we decided to satisfy our cravings:

Mister Kabab, West Ave.

95A West Ave.

Quezon City, Metro Manila

Philippines

(02) 373-5941

Mister Kabab Menu is one of my latest cravings every week! lol. I guess i'm not the only one, because once you have it, I'm sure you'll find a way to get back. That's why expect the rush hour at night, you'll be in waiting seats first once you arrived.

But the waiting really pays off!

My order: Ox Brain. YUM!

Lamb Beryani

Also my favorite: Special Beef Chelo

After overwhelming dinner we go straight ahead in Timog Ave.

Gerardo's

Panay Ave., South Triangle

Timog Quezon City

I recommend this bar for those who aren't into heavy partying mood - but a heavy beer drinkers. It's laid back ambiance(we're actually wearing our school uniform)LOL

With its famous 12-bucket beer and Nachos which only cost Php390, expect to wait especially if its friday or saturday night. In our case it's a friday night! so we also waited.

Now i wonder, How much time in human life is wasted in waiting?

I don't know! i bet it's a lot of time.

Yes, I definitely hate waiting! but after all, this day ends simply but fulfilling.

steady

steadiness - freedom from wavering or indecision; constancy of resolve or conduct wordnetweb.princeton.edu/perl/webwn

It might not be new to you when I say that as of now I’m still in a solid state of being undecided.I have all of my time since February of this year, doing nothing just making out to the best of free time until graduation day hits. 9 days more before that day, and from what I know a normal bum like me should have a “plan, at least”.

Don’t’ get me wrong but, I am so glad I finished it on time hassle-free. And I’m proud to say that everything I attained now (from family to friends, academics, events, etcetera) is something that should make me ready. I mean, I’m done with academic teenage years, everything around is in a perfect state. Nothing else is to be worried about, It’s just ME - myself.

Okay, I’ll point it out - I don’t know what I’m thinking. All I know is I don’t want to have a job that I know I wouldn’t like, I don’t want to settle unto something that had just happened by chance.  Sad to say, my targeted companies who’s welcoming entry level like me isn’t hiring for this graduation year, even had added two years for the minimum age requirement. Pffft!

So the next choice will come in, either by land? Or by sea? At least some of it is hiring, but then again, I’m not doing anything. And it’s bugging me while everyone else is praying so hard to get in and start right ahead. I just found out that my plan B wasn’t detailed enough because now it leaves me with an open choice.

I just have to pray and pay some more patience I guess. I just have to leave the entire summer season in my shoulders, if I still have the chances on getting the opportunity that I always planned, then that’s better. If not, I know there’s an alternative, probably just so needy to have some time to figure it out.

the pre-graduate

I cant explain the feeling of being totally free. For the first time in my life, a stage in studying has ended and doesn’t require a next bigger scale of being a student. The hard work really pays off. The integration from high school to college, that is like moving out literally from my mother’s home, and there’s no choice left but to be independent.

Though graduation day isn’t yet finished, I can feel the celebration over me. It isn’t about the ceremony, but the essence of this time that I’m already finished, so free from school works. Oh how this last academic year so harsh to me, I define it very stressful. But then, how can you appreciate something that is already there? You really have to make through to something just to appreciate it.  

Since 2nd week of february, when I am always out every single night; is exactly what I planned it to be. And when I say I’m out, it naturally means being with random friends. So to tell it honestly, it is my own way of making up. You know, contacting them again, stating dates and where; In one whole straight week. There might be some I had missed, but surely there were still days that is bound for them, that doesn’t actually need a keen plan.

Don’t judge me by the drinking part. It’s just that, alcohol is the best time to share with friends. But that part is now also over, I have no any other plans or schedule that will require me to set an alarm on my phone. Now, I watch movies, listen more genre of music, sleeping all day long, sometimes normal coffee breaks in the afternoon. The only things I am complying for now in school is the graduation orientation, toga fitting, etcetera, something like that.

I am gaining more weight as I know it, and I have no plan to do anything about it. I will continue eating I want and then sleep after. To tell you the truth, I hate deprivation. It’s not bad, but it and works for some but not for me. As long as all of my clothes still fits me well, eating as much as I want won’t alarm me. I literally eat full meal and then sleep Haha. I can’t blame myself and those who are doing the same, because I’m doing nothing! and sleeping and eating is a basic need! why deprive?! :)

I’ll say it again, how the last academic year very stressful. I even forgot what’s that for? I have taken it one step at a time, in that way I have been a little less pressured, and now it’s all over. You have no idea how my feeling is lighter. Doesn’t have an idea what will happen next, which is understood; the welcome sign of the real world will soon say hello to me. But at least this time, it will be up to me how soon. :)
 

new

For the last few days of the year, I see the same thing will happen ahead. Well at least only at the beginning of 2011. I remembered last days of 2009 when I’m wondering what would it be exactly after 1 year, I feel excited then, it’s my graduating year. That’s what I am, something new always makes me want to fasten things up.

And now I am here. Yes, everything is new. No more night outs, no more spending time in alcoholic gig bars nearest in my dorm with closest friends before and after classes. That’s what I miss during school days I can’t get back. The happy times, but still able to comply on things I should.

2010 is my happy single year. It’s the year where I really appreciate the essence of being solo. The point where i had found the importance of knowing yourself first and knowing how to trust people rightly - that depends on how they deserve it.

Now I’m deadlier ever than before. Haha. (kidding) I’m ready  to get things on and see if how It really should be. With my personality who only gives what she gets, unwilling to make feelings overflow, I know it will always be hard for me to commence.

stability

On times like this when everything is stable, it gives me comfort and makes me feel very thankful. Though I wasn’t the very best student that I can be, I’m achieving more and acquire skills as time goes by; as I will be prepared and  feel that my plans for the future, is reserved for me like no need to hurry.

On the other hand, when everything is going well in the present time, you gather more and more excitement to get things done and wait for the next one. Wanting to fasten things up doesn’t always mean you’re not proud of what you have right now.

the working culture

My plan for at least 3 posts a week wasn’t done, even reading the listed books I planned to read within this year is a failure. I never imagined what a busy person truly was, not until in this moment of time.

I had posted several weeks ago that I’m on my ojt. I was accepted on the said hotel, and I have no idea this is so serious. I won’t mention the hotel’s name, I don’t know why, I just can’t believe that practicumers there do the same thing just like the regular employees, but in my part? No pay.

Imagine 8 hrs every day except one day off every week. Standing for the whole straight hours while providing full service to guests in different races in a full poise and grooming in heels. I’m not into physical stress which is understood, but my feet really can’t stand it. It is possible my muscles on my feet will develop sprain in the future just because of too much standing.

Apparently, this is my target department to get the actual training. It is rare to be in the department that you choose. So I consider myself lucky, but then there’s a price to pay hahaha, and that is to do the regular job with no pay. Haha.

I maybe into a working shock, it’s the first time I work, even if I’m getting through this hard which is I call the “adjustment”, I always make sure that I do everything to the best that I can, like finding what to do when you’re doing nothing. I just can’t deal the long hours! (I say it again) my feet really - KILLS ME!

But since I’m a practicumer, i really stop exactly when 8 hrs is over, and i'm not afraid to ask and commit mistake. Not like the casual employees that extends everytime it is busy. Well, why would i? I just can’t believe how casual employees stand it. It will take them years to be regular, still, doing the same job, only with a minimum salary. Then the management call that hotel a 5 star, what’s the difference to those who are working in 3 star? (less responsibility, but same pay?) That’s why my heads up to casual employees to that hotel.

I observed that in every department there were more casual employees than regulars. I don’t get it! They belong to the same manpower. So it’s not surprising some of the employees will decide unto applying somewhere else. How would the management retain its workers for the same system of promotion? I’m sorry to say but honestly, It’s not competitive.

Too bad, the majority of casual employees that I met are loyal, and I can say the dedication and hard work is very obvious. Though it’s slightly unfair, they don’t care and still do the job in the best way that they can even if they realize there were a whole lot more opportunity outside with that background. That hotel, I can say, is very blessed with their casual employees alone. But then of course, it’s possible not to retain them for more than half a decade.

After all, my concern is to learn more about the job. I don’t care what ever the problem is. Only the stability of my feet (I’ve said it again) to comply properly in their working hours.

applying for training

Seems like I have nothing to post huh? Yeah. That was right, but is doesn’t mean I have no time and feel lazy - No. Honestly, I always wanted to post but I guess there is nothing on my mind nowadays really. Except for some thoughts that is only meant sharing to my closest girlfriends.

Okay, I’ll admit since last month I worry for my career in the future (haha biglang ganon). You can’t blame me, I’m a graduating student for this school year, and tourism industry training is ahead for short, OJT. We aren’t one to those lucky students of these  schools or universities that are tied up to airlines or hotels. We have to do our own thing which is applying.

That’s why right after feasib, I have to be committed for the next one, and that is to have enough efforts in application. I don’t have what you called “backer” to fasten things up. I and two of my friends had to go through the hard way. After the stressful major college paper, I find no time for being laidback. I send my resumes to hotels right after everything in my academics is done. Meaning, I’m already late for choosing on where to have this damn training.

On the first week of intense physical strain in hotels all over metro manila, there were no calls from employers, not even one. That time, I was worried double time. What if I didn’t find? That was awful. I imagine myself to be accepted in some office that I really don’t want working with, just to fill up the requirements for that OJT.

Exactly after one week someone called for interview. And I feel a little of relief. I thought no one will ever call haha. This hotel is along Roxas Blvd, a 5 star thank god. But about that, I won’t tell the details for now, not yet sure if I’m 100% accepted. But I’m done with their required medicals and I’m still waiting for the results.

busy.. maybe

Our feasibility study is over. We ended up highest in our class, two groups tied in # 1 out of 7.  And we don’t mind not joining the competition. Joining there is achievement of course, but for me it’s just an added pressure and added work. I actually perceive it as the very good part, a same grade to that group who will compete. Ahw it is stress free!

 

So for now, honestly I don’t mind anything that has something to do with academics. The grades on remaining subjects aside from Tourism Business Planning is more than enough – enough to sustain even if I fail on finals. Oh well, I’ll fail only if my profs will count my absences (LOL). Everyone knows its multiple! But this would be my last time complying for academics in school. My very last sem, next semester will be spent on ojt and in nstp. So you read it right! I am through in every academic subjects in my degree.

Another good part is my classes will be on Wednesdays and Saturdays only. I don’t have class anymore on Sundays, Mondays, Tuesdays, Thursdays and Fridays. Isn’t it good? I love it. I’ll be a college student with only two days at the campus haha. I’ll be spending this good part on 3 weeks remaining for this semester.

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Yeah, mostly knows that I spend spare time just by sleeping in the last couple of weeks. That is the time when I totally miss spending time every night outside. I haven’t drink anything that has something to do with alcohol in almost a month – that wasn’t normal. Yes, but now I’m already free. Maybe you expect me to comeback unto something that I surely miss. I tell you NO, I’m not. That is what I love about myself, I am barely to be predicted. 

If you will ask me what I’m doing? I go to school, but I’m not going to class, lol. Another thing is last few days I am not always online. It’s not like I don’t have a choice. I put down a little night out, dinner, movies, sessions these past few days. Maybe you think I do have a problem. No, actually that’s exactly behind it. I don’t have even one.

But every day is something to look forward. It doesn’t mean my social life is zero. I still spend lunch and coffee with treasured friends from school. Yes very simple, it’s my decision to take time in its simplest on my most luxurious-free time. I watched and spend all my money on dvd’s – movies that I definitely miss on cinemas. I even finishing gossip girl season 1 and 2 as of now. And prefer to watch basketball games live – on tv. Not in araneta coliseum (live is sometimes heartbreaking). Next week I’ll be reading the books that are listed below. At least  1 or 2.

Hey it wasn’t boring. I’ts just that I enjoyed myself well enough during college, and this time is something that I will surely miss when I’m already working. Anyway, this will only be for awhile.
-    Before the sem ends, I should have applied on a company that I will go on my OJT to. (doesn’t sounds easy) 

randomly updating

I always wanted to post here in a fixed order. Because at least at this time I’m not the only one who read this unlike the old times – but well it’s just a guess. But it happens that I have been busy for something that is not actually meaningful (if that’s what you wanna call it)

meaningful - in a comprehensive manner like being active in academics or something. Nowadays I just want to get out of my usual routine, getting rid of my regular habit, which is getting disturbed and overspending, when I’m alone, stressing myself to blame things why I have done that but still - happens for the next day.

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The last few days:

May be the most “accordance to me” days of my college life. I get what I want, got the nice profs, the schedule that I want, no doubt for my subjects as of now (at least), get rid of too much unreasonable early absences, and a little extra money that is enough for emergency shopping – which I actually don’t have before, something like that.

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My birthday is like tomorrow or 20 minutes from now. It is not a surprise that I don’t have any plans. Not even a single one except I’ll be absent for class. If I’ll be giving a treat, it will only happen by chance. Because that’s real honest - I really have no plan. But I do really appreciate those who want it, those who doesn’t forget it, those who greet early. Thank you really. I love you all, in the sincerest part of my heart. :’)

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I had stopped reading novels. Now I know it depends on the “weather”. Sometimes you want to read all of the works of this writer or at least one, but now, it’s not like that, I don’t feel like it. But maybe I will if someone give me the latest one of D.B which is The Lost Symbol. I am also planning to read it all of his works again. hahaha

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One thing that I am very proud as of these days is that - I’m on my 7th week for St.Jude Church. Yeah, I go there every Thursday alone. I have to complete 9 consecutive Thursdays so that my wish will be in command – that’s what they say. But it’s not my whole point on why I’m going there. It is just that, even before, I’m really a devotee of this church, I can say that St.Jude grants all my wish, he’s very nice to me. This time I am just trying to complete the 9 day mass and novena. I will not mention my wish, but it is something that I have been wishing all my life, that I can never ask for more when it happens (that is the good part of having a strong religious faith – you self medicate) LOL

06142010

I am glad for the essence of wasting time by myself and with my favorite girlfriends. As in so glad NOT committed and wasting time to anyone and going through by myself in any emotional and mental roller coaster.

it must be holy

I guess I wasn’t the usual blog owner that regularly post everyday events (I’m actually negative to sign up for twitter). But spending here in this very obvious “temporary” vacation is making the two weeks - only in our house, to be long enough in not to be busy on anything. I got backed to my older posts and it seems this blog really contributes to the other side of my being. I barely have more than 2 posts in every month and its like I’m mentioning some things only me who will understand hahaha, so now I’m aiming to have at least 3 consecutive posts on the next days w/ a concept on making it a little of shallow.

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I’ve updated my multiply account, its layout making me edit it every now and then; for the reason I’m not contented. But now it’s okay! plain and simple – blends well in this blogger account. I hope it will be final for the next 2 years. Sometimes I really want to graduate na. Only for the reason that I would be able to upgrade my accounts to premium here and in multiply (very reasonable huh) because I can’t afford losing this two, especially in multiply all of my pictures are there, no copy or hardcopy whatsoever. (I don’t even upload for facebook)

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Today is within the parameters of holy week. No one can be insensitive to it, this is a catholic country. Everyone can feel it everywhere, seeing it on tv having live broadcast of masses, hearing the pabasa on the streets from the place you live, seeing people who spend their long weekend for visita iglesia. Its spirit is count less, you’ll even see the local palengke selling not too much meat. But me:

I’ll state a little secret: I’m not into “no meat for awhile” it is known for the term “fasting”. It seems I still fry some processed food (as in hotdog, bacon, sausage, etc.) hmmm yum yumm! just like in normal days. I think I have been doing this off the guard policy for years. Christians restricts it as well as those religious persons. And anyway, no one restricts it in our house.

I decided to be fully homebody in this week, this plan was something I generated when school is on its peak – so tiring and embarrassing because I barely possess the luxury of time. So NOW I fully stayed inside the house. No exceptions. But well, not saving any money for free days ahead are a good idea, it helps you keep your own promise.

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OKAY so you want your holy week to be a rest day. My usual rest day includes reading a book. Be proud of me! Finally I have read The Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown. Very impressive and they say high IQ. I like its factual content together with its suspense story that compliments the fiction very well. This book is actually the most controversial book of this author because of its idea of history for Jesus Christ.

(done with this four: in order: and in by cover)

Now the only Dan Brown book I haven’t read is The Lost Symbol

(remaining one)which is the latest, and I find it expensive in national bookstore it costs 1k. Every one who knows me well that I’m a very fan of Dan Brown and I’ll be glad to be not kuripot enough in spending 1k for a hard bound book you’ll only once read (I’m still thinking about it lately). I actually recommend it to my mom – who I know is very tired reading books.And I also recommend it to all of you!

Oh I almost forgot. Not at this time. It is Easter.

rudimentary

Start of classes is always a pleasure for me. For the reason that i don't have to worry for something, i see it as a chance to start it rightfully. But then i am having a hard time waking up early. Start of my everyday class is 7:30 meaning, i have to wake up 6am. That was actually the time im in the middle of my dreams! And as you can notice 6am is still dark outside due to climate (Pre - Christmas season) it's so good to sleep. (sigh*) that's why i am absent for the whole 1st - 1 week! it doesn't make me feel guilty but not as the 2nd week - i missed multiple absences and quizzes. I also commit many counts of absences for some major subjects, hey! that wasn't according to my plan!

But i am lucky and blessed: adjustment - it is always very hard for me, but i am born to be done with it so fast - to the fact you cannot imagine. Major adaptations wont require months or years for me.