Juana Tamad

I’m experiencing too much inferiority now, I mean, I know ever since that I am not normal like the people that I use to classify that is same as my breed. Almost all of the people that I knew and vice versa were not so far the way that I behave, but this time I can say that I’m the worst one.

Before, I was afraid that too much laziness will come back to me, it was from when I was junior to senior year in high school. But I’m not like this when I became college, It’s turning back!

My procrastinating “skills” had came to its “best” meaning, my sense of productivity had finally shut down. It is sad to say, if before I’m delaying everything, now I end up not doing anything. So my end- product will just be a “smart copy” of mine from the people who’s doing the same thing. Yes of course it’s a sign of irresponsibility and immaturity or whatever you wanna call it. But you know what? I know I have to do this specific things in certain times but I really c-a-n-n-o-t! instead of meeting the things that I should do, I use to finish something else which is not needed at the moment. It’s like I don’t care in anything and seriously, it bothers me so much.

Just a while in our classroom with classmates, everybody was so busy answering a quiz. It’s about quotations and costing for one of our major subjects. I transferred seat which is at the back, so our prof wont caught me so busy waiting. As I sit I was quiet, staring to my classmates, watching them asking to each other what or how to do it, then some was busy doing their own thing. And for goodness, I was just there the hard part is that I’m “waiting” to be through it all so that the answers will be just forwarded to me, I don’t even bother to ask “what we will do?”, “what is the one we will compute in this?”

My image in this block (section) is a perfect model to illustrate juan tamad.

And this is not just something that I build up, it’s from I had observed. Any way at least I know that I have above-normal human perception. Just to make you know that I am not stringing negativity to myself.

As I watch them, I’m busy convincing my self that everything is still under control, that I won’t have any failing grade this semester. Because I’m passing everything the only difference is that I’m not doing my own layout and I have multiple absences. (Uggh! haha) Apparently, it’s true, successfully I convinced myself, LOL. Telling that, just because it is, it doesn’t mean it would be.