after you've gone over it
1 whole week is all i need to make myself more confused. Yes more confused.
A new option that I learned while I’m having trouble in time – I want it to be useful. Right after this semester, every day I am out, all day and all night. But I found out it doesn’t help:
1. it just makes me feel less in control.
2. It doesn’t help making me feel less guilty.
Exactly just what I have thought: You can’t escape from what is really within you. That time I decided on hitting what is really in front of my face, since I am the only one who will truly help myself, I assess that I have to consider myself carefully – and first. These are the things:
1. Time
2. Pride
3. Emotion
4. Strategy
I came to thinking that you’ll never know what is the solution if you really don’t know what is the real problem. It is easy as it sounds, but there are many things you don’t want to believe even if you are the one who found it out (you don’t even want to say it aloud). Apparently, i acknowledge for the worst, and expect for the least. He’s doing games without him knowing and I have to play it practical.
The 4 mentioned above can’t be done as one at the same time. I’m not sure why emotion is included there, for the first time, but what do I expect to do? So hard! I knew it wouldn’t come, the way that I have planned. So I finally planned to take my part, take it - in the way that I know.
Now I am done.
It can’t be whole again without it’s another half. If it doesn’t , its okay.. if he will- that’s good! But it will take another story. And surely I won’t bet for something that is there but broken. My actions came out just right. No regrets
Now, it is not already up to me, i feel no pressure within. I am not the one who did not do everything in trying to make things right.
Believe me, im so tired. Tired to the fact that I don’t care about its outcome anymore. Let's just see. Bahala na. - that is what confusion makes you! haha (try it sometimes!) ^_^
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