easy come, easy go

They say that being alone is the greatest fear in the world. The word “alone” and “independent” isn’t the same thing. But the minimal similarities can’t be denied.

I may be the best procrastinated person that my friends ever knew. But as long as I can, I don’t want to ask for help. If I need to get through the hard way, then I will, than the easy way.

I don’t need help not because of heightened ego. It’s just that I don’t want myself being used to it. Even advices from friends and family, I don’t easily give in. I keep it all by myself as much as possible.

Relying or asking favor? It seldom happens. Not to mention my parents of course, but still, just enough. Just right for proper education and some material basic things I think I should have. I never took them for granted, I never even ask for a grand birthday party on my entire life. If ever i had, they provided it themselves.

I don’t know if it’s weird or not, but asking someone to give a favor for another individual? It’s like asking me if I will trust that person or not. Is he or she worth asking favor with?

It might be weird but, it isn’t new. Just like girls in deliberating opposite sex. Other than the reason of knowing him by attitude or background etc., it doesn’t end there, of course they want to know if that guy is also willing to take the worst part of them, or, does he mind offering help even if you don’t need one.

Girls might go with you every time you ask her to go out (hey man, that’s easy!) or be alone in a dark room with you. But then, if serious relationship is what you’re looking for, then, respect comes with that; it is earned by your efforts you are trying to show without her asking it, not just with impressing! (impressing is easy, anyone can do that.)

I can be friendly instantly in a “sneaky” way. But once I asked for something, it’s a sign to me that I’m starting to like this person; that he or she is worth knowing as a friend that i could keep; that this person is getting important to me. When something like this had happened, it’s rare. That’s why every time my favor wasn’t met, I get easily disappointed(turn-off).

I can’t help it. I always regard it as a waste of time. (I don’t want to go further anymore!!) Let’s just say, now it’s making sense. Easy come, easy go.