I never had a plan to stop writing. I feel like the last post was only yesterday. I've done some back read and I am very glad I've recorded thoughts from years ago just like how we keep photographs. (by the way, I've failed to recover my pictures in the now defunct multiply.com. That's worth of 4 years of my life, I'm still frustrated about it). That's why I'm not gonna let that happen again; missing a thought without writing it.
From july 2013 (my birthday month), the universe had added two years in my age. To say that "a lot had happened" is underrated, but to describe it on its simplest, i'll say "nothing had actually stayed the same".
In detail, I have experienced losing something that I think is real and I have gone mad because it's out of my control. Then, I moved on; deviated to another plan, discovered a new strength and knowledge, and later on I decided to come back to what I think I deserve in the first place. And now here I am, not even halfway through, searching again for the next door.
I don't know if i'll be happy or not for the fact that I am very capable of moving on from the things I don't want to up with. Others will probably think that the situation is messed up, but looking back, I became an enthusiast of major changes, no fears. I have learned to see the beauty in new beginnings.
Knowing the capability and having the privilege of doing so just when I feel like it is overwhelming. It's too easy and gotten used to it to the point I started thinking what if the real challenge is to put up to everything you don't want? That's how I think how privileged I am, because I've never done that -- putting up with something I don't want, to fear about an incoming end.Haha
Is it a measure of maturity? Taking responsibility of yourself as an adult?
I might have been 2 years older and never got matured enough, maybe LOL. But to take responsibility of yourself also means to cater what you need; to live up in the standards you want for yourself. Because if you can't give what you want for your own life and cannot get rid of the things you don't want, then who will do it for you? just you.
You are the king, queen of your life, you are the boss. Do what you want anytime you want it! Don't limit your self, the life were living is ours.
So the challenge is to put up, I might be wrong, I might be right but it doesn't matter because i'll take it.
After having the next one :)
From july 2013 (my birthday month), the universe had added two years in my age. To say that "a lot had happened" is underrated, but to describe it on its simplest, i'll say "nothing had actually stayed the same".
In detail, I have experienced losing something that I think is real and I have gone mad because it's out of my control. Then, I moved on; deviated to another plan, discovered a new strength and knowledge, and later on I decided to come back to what I think I deserve in the first place. And now here I am, not even halfway through, searching again for the next door.
I don't know if i'll be happy or not for the fact that I am very capable of moving on from the things I don't want to up with. Others will probably think that the situation is messed up, but looking back, I became an enthusiast of major changes, no fears. I have learned to see the beauty in new beginnings.
Knowing the capability and having the privilege of doing so just when I feel like it is overwhelming. It's too easy and gotten used to it to the point I started thinking what if the real challenge is to put up to everything you don't want? That's how I think how privileged I am, because I've never done that -- putting up with something I don't want, to fear about an incoming end.Haha
Is it a measure of maturity? Taking responsibility of yourself as an adult?
I might have been 2 years older and never got matured enough, maybe LOL. But to take responsibility of yourself also means to cater what you need; to live up in the standards you want for yourself. Because if you can't give what you want for your own life and cannot get rid of the things you don't want, then who will do it for you? just you.
You are the king, queen of your life, you are the boss. Do what you want anytime you want it! Don't limit your self, the life were living is ours.
So the challenge is to put up, I might be wrong, I might be right but it doesn't matter because i'll take it.
After having the next one :)
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