entering adulthood

Before this year started, my plans for myself totally shifted. The kinds of decisions I thought I’ll always make when I already had a chance. Thank God, I experienced those chances as what I had slightly predicted few years back. But none of those didn’t quite match, in the way I expected how overwhelming it can be.

Not because I didn’t deliver the actions rightly, I did, but not as motivated as I could get. By the time given, I realized that my choices/objectives (dreams is what the most think of it) before are mostly based only for the comfort of the present. It’s like being selfish for yourself. They say “don’t be too hard on yourself” well, you can be pretty sure of that I’m NOT. I can say I did achieve just exactly the same thing even THOUGH, others worked HARDER for it.

My GOALS when I was 5 years younger are strictly straight. I did believe I’m not one of those who will change personal passion in the middle of college. I didn't and its too blissful for a teenage girl who already did figured out her directions in the future THAT EARLY, considering ONLY the consoles of the current situations.  The good term to describe it is “incorrigible”. I thought I already realistically figured out how things will be.

But things changed. My perceptions, reasons, environments, opportunities – all of these and my CRITERION with it, strikes at me significantly and made me think; with all the faith and possibilities in the world, I could be better than what I had prefer for myself before. After all I had learned, I am thoroughly distinct, this time I WANT MORE.

Now I’ve decided to base my decisions on my future no matter how my present will cost me, I am more than willing to sacrifice all the possible comfort I could get now, as long as It will contribute efficiently well in my future.

Not really sure if it’s right and applicable for everybody but, this is just me more than willing, in control and dedicated to go exactly wherever I wanted to be in life. Now, for the first time, I have a chance to be a little difficult for myself. And it just happen this is the best place in someone's life where it could be most applicable.