Found Thought

I love the lyrics so much as well as the whole music, been listening to it for the past few days; over and over again.. i wish this song is longer, like 10 minutes. Haha.. sometimes i am amazed realizing that i will find out the exact words in such lyrics; the words i barely can't deliver:

HAPPY VALENTINES! :)

Here Is Gone

You and I got somethin
But it's all and then it's nuthin to me, yeah
And I got my defenses
When it comes through your intentions for me, yeah

And we wake up in the breakdown
With the things we never thought we could be, yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We got to move you darlin
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

I am no solution
To the sound of this pollution in me, yeah
And I was not the answer
So forget you ever thought it was me, yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We got to move you darlin
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

And I dont need the fallout
Of all the past that's in between us
And I'm not holding on
And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
And I can feel you falling

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah

Juana Tamad

I’m experiencing too much inferiority now, I mean, I know ever since that I am not normal like the people that I use to classify that is same as my breed. Almost all of the people that I knew and vice versa were not so far the way that I behave, but this time I can say that I’m the worst one.

Before, I was afraid that too much laziness will come back to me, it was from when I was junior to senior year in high school. But I’m not like this when I became college, It’s turning back!

My procrastinating “skills” had came to its “best” meaning, my sense of productivity had finally shut down. It is sad to say, if before I’m delaying everything, now I end up not doing anything. So my end- product will just be a “smart copy” of mine from the people who’s doing the same thing. Yes of course it’s a sign of irresponsibility and immaturity or whatever you wanna call it. But you know what? I know I have to do this specific things in certain times but I really c-a-n-n-o-t! instead of meeting the things that I should do, I use to finish something else which is not needed at the moment. It’s like I don’t care in anything and seriously, it bothers me so much.

Just a while in our classroom with classmates, everybody was so busy answering a quiz. It’s about quotations and costing for one of our major subjects. I transferred seat which is at the back, so our prof wont caught me so busy waiting. As I sit I was quiet, staring to my classmates, watching them asking to each other what or how to do it, then some was busy doing their own thing. And for goodness, I was just there the hard part is that I’m “waiting” to be through it all so that the answers will be just forwarded to me, I don’t even bother to ask “what we will do?”, “what is the one we will compute in this?”

My image in this block (section) is a perfect model to illustrate juan tamad.

And this is not just something that I build up, it’s from I had observed. Any way at least I know that I have above-normal human perception. Just to make you know that I am not stringing negativity to myself.

As I watch them, I’m busy convincing my self that everything is still under control, that I won’t have any failing grade this semester. Because I’m passing everything the only difference is that I’m not doing my own layout and I have multiple absences. (Uggh! haha) Apparently, it’s true, successfully I convinced myself, LOL. Telling that, just because it is, it doesn’t mean it would be.

Beware

The funny thing about this blog is that it doesn’t have publicity. I think I’m the only one who read this. But don’t laugh yet, I knew it even from the start. On this lifestyle I am on, people are so much into friendster and for some is multiply. I have it both even myspace and this. Those three is ongoing including public accounts, LOL. But as of now I enjoy the one that is inactive to be seen by my friends. I don’t know, it feels like doing anything you want. But of course whenever it is on the internet it doesn’t have any privacy at all. Even friendster private profile and albums can be viewed by some in their own tricky way. And its not so far, possibly also multiply. Too bad for those who are keeping their secrets or should I say secret publicity on the internet, it’s a bad idea, I recommend to delete it immediately. Don’t be fooled by the settings in the internet, PUBLIC or PRIVATE its just the same! Haha. But don’t react yet, I know there’s still a thin line between the two of that, specially for those who doesn’t have any idea. Then afterwards for those who want to ask “how?”

Don’t ask me, I don’t know. But I have an idea. Viewing private albums is actually easier that viewing private profiles. “how” again? They change certain words on the page’s URL. But as from the news underground, it has now been fixed by friendster. But here’s the latest: a new browser has been developed that when it has been downloaded, you can log in to that specific page and there you go, you can view any single private accounts you want.

But why am I saying this? Nothing, I just feel like spilling it out. And on the first place I’m the only one who’s reading this Hahaha. I know I’m not doing any sense here but at least for some say thanks to me, STALKERS! Haha. You all now have an idea, then of course the next thing you do is you will google it. But hey, I’ll tell you, the real one is somewhere else! haha

Subjective

Do you get easily embarrassed
Yes, but inconsistently. And I have nothing to with it but to be quiet. Liars
usually pissed me so easily, but still I think I am blessed with a good humility.

Describe your ideal man
I really can’t answer this question immediately. Because its not always official, I know everyone can make any kind of exceptions when it comes to the person they use to like. But certainly not a perfect man (someone who’s not tall, dark and handsome Lol. ) you know, just enough who’s not also seeking another perfect girl too. Haha

When you were in school, did you speak up in class?
I recite whenever it is graded. I don’t answer any long conversational questions to impress my classmates or my teacher. I know I’m not alone! Of course there were some who really don’t participate only if it is in their gain. hahaha

Did you sit in front or the back?
I use to sit in front when I was younger because I am blur eyed, but sometimes teachers keep transferring me at the back because I’m taller than average girls. And it depends on the subject if it really matters to me

Do you wake up easily in the morning or require coffee, exercise, or something else to get you going?
no i definitely can't wake up easily in the morning. haha. cold water does help.

What is your own personal bedtime routine?
Wash, brush, pray.

What qualities you look for in a friend. in other words, what causes you to really “click” with someone?
I think of anyone who can be true and comfortable her/himself. Someone who’s not requiring to be with.

Are you the type who plans the future or goes with the flow
I usually have a general plan but it includes going with the flow. Haha. I mean, everything you want doesn’t usually go in your way while there is something better that is bound to be one of the choices. It’s like going with the flow but still prioritizing or focused to your plans

What is a lie that you often tell yourself?
None. I’m brutally honest to myself, I analyze reality (lol) ‘cause I think it is the way it should be. I don’t know!

What is one piece of advice that was one of the best you’ve ever received?
“You become what you think about” this is somehow connected to one’s perception. It’s true literally. I don’t know where I got this but in most situations every people cannot help to think negatively to the outcome of their opinions or in things they have to do, and sometimes it leads to building up discouragement or quitting.

Tell us about something you accomplished this week that you’re happy about.
This time, I didn’t let a single opportunity pass :) but still there were some things I failed to meet. lol

About a task or project you have that you have been procrastinating about for a long time?
I’m procrastinating in almost everything! especially if it's not easy to do/research. I end up copying to someone or else I’ll end up doing it in very short time span. lol

Year 2009 Overview - Leo

In 2009, you find yourself connecting with people effortlessly as your warm-hearted actions are acknowledged and radiated back to you in a way you've never experienced before. The confident joy and happiness you freely give to others gives you the innate ability to be productive. For you, kind actions are the way to transformation and success. 

This is a perfect time for proud Leo, because you have the desire, drive and power to help society. You realize there's work to do, and you'll give a helping hand wherever you can. You are ready to align yourself with a higher level of awareness, and exhibit a regenerative attitude is about reaping the harvest by submitting to the larger purpose. What you are able to give to others directly reflects the transformation happening within you.

Your heart is in the right place, and you are likely to accomplish all that you set out to do this year. You're developing excellent skills in your own personal transformation process, and you are ready to make the conscious decision to be the best you can be. You feel secure, and the beauty of who you are shines through easily and effortlessly.