hi there twenty ten

New year's resolution seems to be a habit and not a principle anymore. Usually, it comes to consciousness after the day of Christmas. In my case, it never comes to my mind in any day of the year; setting out plan something like "New Year's Resolution" i perceive it as too impractical, since i'm one of the breed of persons that things doesn't usually come out according to own plans - I'd rather not to keep anything! I know it wont be something that i can keep for the entire year; something i will give up in every moment of possession. And just like any other regular day, new year's eve will just pass by. Tell me if i'm wrong! That's a fact!

As i woke up this morning i am wondering why i have this kind of energy to have my way around my mind about this matter (Resolution) "it's too many days early for that" i thought. But then i can't stop. There were so many things i have to fix for myself, especially those that have negative impacts on me as a human being. Then i thought again "i cant keep a promise, even to myself", except to one: "just forget about it, let things go on its way". Letting fate go on my way and not contradicting it is actually my yearly plan. Ask me "why??" the answer is "it is easy".

But i feel like this year (2009) is too rewarding. It needs some appreciation of honor, haha.

1. First, is the worst cases of problems that would possibly come hasn't come. And i am very thankful for that, this is something that i had already experienced in the previous years and i don't want it to be repeated - i don't want any of those that means a lot to me; those that i give so much value to be at matter of life stake - Family. No one got sick, no one got hurt.
2. Second, is not failing in my priority which is studies. Together with all the vices and savoring the most lazy time you can ever feel with no reason, always late and not always present, too much procrastination, loves to sleep, having hard time waking up early in the morning and lacked in resources together with no patience is something that i describe myself as a student. That is why i'm so happy i have no any back subjects surviving in my 3rd year, who still remains as a regular student. 
3. Last things are not the least:

• For new friends who had come; friends who still stayed the same; friends who built a tighter bond; friends who came back and friends who had shared a different breed of individuality.

• People who come and go; people whom i shared a little moment; people who just recognize me and people who i just know.

There are so many of them in different cases. But every each of them, good or bad, had something to do with me of who i am now. I'm the type who learned so much being with other people - the reason why i love true people, the worst ones may be the better. They never fails to amuse me, i always find them interesting and made me so determine in knowing them about certainty.

• Things i haven't tried before like trying to be in less control. I'm pointing out to the instances i am very aware or avoiding before. (I don't want to be specific in this)

Things I have set myself to be in caution a long time ago, because i know in the end it will hurt. But still, i give it a chance. In the end i failed, and learned seeing my self to be done and get through. This had big contribution in knowing myself better.. than ever! I am very grateful for the whole process. Afterall, it wasn't harder than i thought. I even want to make it better for the next-lucky one. Haha

• Learnings that can only be gain by experience.
  

I found out there is always a problem that you are clueless that it will come, it came with you making you no idea until you found out that there is always a reason behind and you just don't know particularly what is the point. You cannot find it before or even while it is ongoing. Just when after you totally overcome - you can even overlook it beyond, only; when everything has ended.

Everything that i have mentioned above is something that is out of control. But then, i have gained it. Truly, it was something i am so thankful. This were the things if i am not aware, i wont be able to recognize.

To recompense, my plan wasn't something like to stop smoking, drinking or going out. My personal luxury will still continue, in fact, i'll add some, like:

• Read more books (by trying some authors)
• Go out more with friends (except for the 1st quarter of the year)
• Invest more on books (so that i can refrain in buying food in QSR's)
• Try to apply for part time job (if i'll be lucky)
• Cooperation in group matters (whatever groups)
• Listen more to other genre
• Save some money (coins) lol
• and, Quit resentment to anyone ^^

That were some. After all, year 2009 is something to be important for everyone. There were good and bad things had come,overcome and ended.But for me, there is no turning back.

rudimentary

Start of classes is always a pleasure for me. For the reason that i don't have to worry for something, i see it as a chance to start it rightfully. But then i am having a hard time waking up early. Start of my everyday class is 7:30 meaning, i have to wake up 6am. That was actually the time im in the middle of my dreams! And as you can notice 6am is still dark outside due to climate (Pre - Christmas season) it's so good to sleep. (sigh*) that's why i am absent for the whole 1st - 1 week! it doesn't make me feel guilty but not as the 2nd week - i missed multiple absences and quizzes. I also commit many counts of absences for some major subjects, hey! that wasn't according to my plan!

But i am lucky and blessed: adjustment - it is always very hard for me, but i am born to be done with it so fast - to the fact you cannot imagine. Major adaptations wont require months or years for me.

terminate

Kung wala ka nang gustong sabihin

Huwag ka nang tumigin ng ganyan,

Kung bukas ako'y kalilimutan

Sana naman ngayo'y
di mo na isiping ako'y tawagan

[Pre-refrain]

At habang may panahon

Huwag na nating hintaying, lumalim pa

At masakit nang tanggapin

[Chorus]

Ang pag-alis ng iyong liwanag
Na gumising sa mahabang gabi

Ika'y langit ngunit baka masanay

At di na kakayanin ang iyong pag alis

Kung wala ka ng gustong marinig

Ako'y aalis at mananahimik

Ang kahapon na nais kong limutin

Sana naman huwag ng manumbalik,

At bigyan pansin

(Repeat pre-refrain)

(Repeat chorus)

unconscious impulses

Apart from longing and loneliness, why is a human being cant accept trials that will enable them to handle challenge; in spite of knowing its price.
Maybe because price has its impartial premise, it always have opposite equal reaction. Here it goes..

Sometimes I feel like I should decide first
before it takes to be brave
in order to be willing in taking consequences,
so that in the end even if it fails, I wont hesitate.

The things bolded above surely have something to do in formulating firmness in my chosen settlement. Of course, I don’t want my end result to be at peril.
And I guess risk is another one.

But one thing is already certain, I guarantee that I am secured,
that I must determine the utmost important.
Hence, the most difficult part is I don’t know where should I commence.
I am not brave enough on where should I properly deliberate: mentally or emotionally.

The two has a cluster of opposing thought.
And each has different set of initial intricate circumstances.
Both are complex in their own way;
outrageous to combine.
I should only choose one to think fit.

As of now I possess the luxury of time,
all I want is to deliberate it well.

Afterall, this is something I have wished before...
(My post last year, click here)

you will know where the edge is,

after you've gone over it

1 whole week is all i need to make myself more confused. Yes more confused.
A new option that I learned while I’m having trouble in time – I want it to be useful. Right after this semester, every day I am out, all day and all night. But I found out it doesn’t help:

1. it just makes me feel less in control.
2. It doesn’t help making me feel less guilty.


Exactly just what I have thought: You can’t escape from what is really within you. That time I decided on hitting what is really in front of my face, since I am the only one who will truly help myself, I assess that I have to consider myself carefully – and first. These are the things:

1. Time
2. Pride
3. Emotion
4. Strategy


I came to thinking that you’ll never know what is the solution if you really don’t know what is the real problem. It is easy as it sounds, but there are many things you don’t want to believe even if you are the one who found it out (you don’t even want to say it aloud). Apparently, i acknowledge for the worst, and expect for the least. He’s doing games without him knowing and I have to play it practical.

The 4 mentioned above can’t be done as one at the same time. I’m not sure why emotion is included there, for the first time, but what do I expect to do? So hard! I knew it wouldn’t come, the way that I have planned. So I finally planned to take my part, take it - in the way that I know.

Now I am done.

It can’t be whole again without it’s another half. If it doesn’t , its okay.. if he will- that’s good! But it will take another story. And surely I won’t bet for something that is there but broken. My actions came out just right. No regrets

Now, it is not already up to me, i feel no pressure within. I am not the one who did not do everything in trying to make things right.

Believe me, im so tired. Tired to the fact that I don’t care about its outcome anymore. Let's just see. Bahala na. - that is what confusion makes you! haha (try it sometimes!) ^_^

horoscope

Upcoming events that you fear might be dangerous actually hold no real threat to you or to your current lifestyle, so don't spend any time worrying today. Your fears right now are not warranted at all; you may be in a more cautious phase of life, but that is only because certain things are starting to mean a lot more to you. The stakes may be getting higher, but you are completely capable of rising to the occasion. So act boldly and do not doubt yourself!


I wish this is exactly true. I found this online! kinda relates to my reality right now. lol

happy 19th year

I'm turning 19 soon and i am a little bit wary. there were so many things had happened, many things to do and a lot more to consider. My mother and i are in between fights and i don't know how we'll gonna make it up before i leave this house for prelim exam this week. i dont even remember the last time we fight like this, im so mad at her and so she is.

At the other hand, exactly on this day, i also have to make it up and condition myself to be more like "masipag" even for one day because i have to finish a lot of school works and find my own way for me to be updated for lessons that i missed. i'm not even sure if i'm gonna make it.

My birthday is on monday and i guess i dont have any idea how will i celebrate it, mentioning the major exams i have to passed, projects and assignments that i dont know if i will be able to finish or if i did im not sure if its right. But one thing is for sure, i wont have presents, money etc.. Mom wont surely give me anything. My only wish in wishing wells, simple birthday cakes is simply peace of mind ever since i was kid - and arrrghh!! im not gonna describe how annoying it will be on monday!

2009 - 2nd quarter

Every month seems to have a very much awaiting must-watch movies. And watching it right on cinemas is somewhat I call “uso” as of now. hehe


MAY - Angels & Demons

A novel brought into movie about science versus religion. The same character Robert Langdon or Tom Hanks who also play the role in The Da Vinci Code and the whole setting is in Vatican City. Honestly, I didn’t appreciate it much because I’m not just in the mood. So, I don’t understand it fully, thinking I will appreciate it more if I just read its book first. I’ll buy it within this semester, it just cost around P300. If there is a reason why I watched this it is because it was a Dan Brown’s creation! That’s all.


JUNE – Drag me to Hell

A loan officer ordered to evict an old woman from her home finds herself the recipient of a supernatural curse, which turns her life into a living hell. This one is one of my favorite latest horror movie.


JULY – Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen

Sam Witwicky, the human caught in the war between two major robot groups called Autobots and Decepticons. The film introduces many more robots and it has been expanded to numerous countries, most notably China and Egypt. I was impressed by the effects but it has a story though!

junior year

Several days to go I’ll be the 3rd year student that I’ve been dreaming since I got into the pool of aspiring college students. For the first time my tendency of planning for the future wasn’t in the end all the way. My dream is “bitin”, I know because it makes me feel so excited for the heavy duty subjects, I am grateful that I really love the course that I am taking. I believe in the junior year, I will arrive at a deeper understanding of why is everyone studying and to appreciate more the benefits of education. So far I have a clue for the learning that I have in the field that I have chosen. Sometimes it makes me proud, that I know certain things; not just in tourism but also in commerce/management. Maybe because I give much value for knowledge, At least.

I recall in:

Freshmen, I’m in the process of so much adjustment; I planned to be a good girl. It was like a transformation of evil to be an angel only for one day. Everything is new, the school, environment, living alone, type of friends, congested city around me, mode of transportation and additional to that is the studying habits.

I’m shock in general, I tend to perceive that everything we do in that time is unbelievably hard for fresh graduates in high school, I wasn’t exaggerating but the feeling is like that. It makes me feel that there is no exact word can explain on what type of progress is in between high school to college. Actually the feeling is that there wasn’t a progress, it’s like I was climbing between two walls, another is so much higher with no ladders between it.

I was glad that I have been through that level which they literally call, Adjustment period. Also, I realize that I am capable, flexible; not so stressed in adaptation of changes.

Sophomore, is my lazy period. I admit I won’t pass without the help of my friends. I tried to work things on my own, but as usual my procrastinating skill had overcome. I finish things in the last minute, meaning my own works weren’t in its best. Since, I have a very promising schedule the start of my classes is always on the afternoon onwards, still I find it really hard to wake up in the afternoon. But there will always be a positive part which is; i belong to a block section that i will always wanted.

Looking back for these two years makes me proud despite the instances. I don’t have a failing grade compared to some of my classmates that I used to be with. If I can just spell the words on how hard it is for me to get through this, it was'nt that easy. On the other hand, there’s a certain pleasure to bring vividly in my mind that I was so tired then but I made it.

Im on the second half now, good luck for me.

gone by or elapsed in time

Past is past

Enough phrase for everyone to understand that past doesn't really have enough explanation.

deal with it

obviously downplaying, good thing you find the most applicable words without noticing you're actually being defensive over it.

She, I bet you won’t guess

• Piggybank is one of the things she used to own, and finds it adorable every now and then. It’s like a collection by accident or should I say by mistake, she had plenty of those fat figures with thin slices over, and small circles beyond. But she never made full any of it even once.
• She’s a very fan of arts in any kind, including doodles, classic Filipino films and painting. Her frustration for a lifetime includes being an artist, also being a basketball player when she was a little younger.
• She always pictures a perfect love story in the near future before he got married. And to believe that true love will only come in her career time – definitely not during college or high school.
• She might preferably take dog as a pet, but it will be actually just for now. She actually finds cats more adorable than dogs. And it’s not that obvious.
• Her legs actually got the most compliments, but; She thinks that her best feature is her jaw line and shoulder blades.
• I think she’s the only human being who got so happy with no reason at all during massive rainy days.
• Deadly scenes in movies amuses her so much, doing stunts with guns and bombs or any kind of weapons. If she will be having a chance to be an actress, she wanted to be an action star -- only if it is a Hollywood movie.
• She has this weird malfunction in her sinuses by time to time. Sinus is the center of her problem in humanity, she always sneeze more than thrice whenever there is a massive amounts of dust, dirt, smoke of vehicles along her way and the changing of temperature in a room and in the weather.
• She keeps a very old model of air-con in her room
• She doesn’t necessarily eat breakfast
• She’s actually learning to be friendly when she’s getting older. And she was blessed to have a good controllability in order to manipulate her own attitude and emotions. But burst out when she really cant take it
• She doesn’t want to be angry as possible thinking she might came out hysterical and act so D-I-F-F-E-R-E-N-T
• If she says, she will. No matter what happen
• She has so many unspoken words she’s trying to back up; and only the right time can convince her not to
• A natural born introvert – only interested in her own thoughts
• She’s dominating and trying hard not to be obvious for it. Apparently, it goes out naturally when she really cant take it anymore.
• Diplomacy - She loves to discover people’s mind and way of thinking without making her obvious to be like an observant – she believes that wisdom can be attain by her own knowledge and experience in meeting different kinds of people
• She’s passive communicator around people she barely know, assertive to aggressive to those people she love and value. –meaning, she actually don’t give a damn, except for her family and close friends.
• She’s very terrible with people’s names! –not so good short term memory
• She hates repetitive talking, reminders and discussions
• Only people who has creativity to look deeper who can vary her among else

A tribute

Curiosity actually bears something else - sometimes

I now smoke more than twice of amount of cigarettes I did before, and have been spending too much money in it. Aside from food and transportation, Yosi is included in my poor weekly budget and diet LOL. I have to consider 2 packs in 5days, the one that I smoke outdoor and in weekends are exempted.

This bothers me so much, I’m so worried for my very young lungs, and he just doesn’t deserve this. But on the other hand, I don’t have any plans to stop this addictive kind of thing. But well, actually I have, maybe after 5 more years.

I got to thinking about the main figures and incidents in my life that has influenced my addictive social being. And the most central figure of all is my family background. All of the immediate family members where I belong to is smoking, but I guess not as much as I do now. I’ve seen them when I was younger, though they say it was bad, I thought it wasn’t that bad to try it once if i like anyway.

Until one day a new found young yaya is in for service to take care for a 8 year old girl, too bad for this girl who got his first smoke when she was just about grade1. Since we have a small store in our house that time, I have tasted all the local brands of cigarettes, I know all the differences –menthol, blue seal , cheap to awful. It is somehow a good thing to do if your young mind is curious and you want to kill time when there is no one left at the room except you.

After that I haven’t remembered anything that makes my mind stimulated by a more curiosity. Until 4th grade, I won’t forget the moment that eight of my closest friends got into the silliest idea that a grade 4 brat could had - to try smoking inside our campus. we actually don’t mind that we have to consider that we’re in a catholic school and basically nuns are the main authority in that school. Until we were caught.

It was like a unpublished headline in our school, we are the 2nd one in entire school having this case; 1st as girls; 1st as elementary, since then every smoking cases had just followed actually. Aside from guidance counselors, school’s discipline coordinator and intermediate teacher’s faculty, I don’t know how the hell happened that the news got through the walls of high school department. Well of course I’m in the right mind now to suspect the possibility that it was via our own “teachers”. Funny huh? I guess they were so outrageously shocked-- So shocked until they don’t even care for the publicity for morality of the student behind the headline, and so shocked-- that they cannot even shut their mouth.

However, the whole process of the incident had triggered my childhood so much. I remembered the eight of us, spending regular school hours everyday in the guidance counselor or discipline officer’s office since the day it has happened; Begging not to advise additional provisions about the said tragedy in life of these little girls to their parents. We can’t barely imagine, how the HELL we’ll gonna say this kind of F*CKED-UP case to our guardians!

These girls had been probated for the 1st year of their intermediate level, and it was like we were sentenced for our whole life in that school. We were somehow famous in disguise. But in that time smoking didn't came to the point that it already became my vice. And I would not forget the idea of how the eight of us use to be much more closer and observe unity in the process. Like, “what we’ll gonna do?”, “what we’ll gonna say?”, “How we gonna act?” – “hey, we should cry while begging, like we’re gonna die because It doesn’t have to be that way”. Poor minds, not thinking that it has been finished already the moment it started to be known by the public.

Each of us got suspended for two days after the final exams LOL. Our parents advised us not to be with each other AGAIN OF COURSE – Though there were still a number who is still nice to decide that she should obey her guardian, but we have been through, some of us STILL spending time in playing kids games, recess, lunch and dismissal OF COURSE . The former eight is subtracted in a lesser number meaning each had to accept that not everyone of us is strong enough to believe in the fact that "individuality is still OVERPOWERING than the spirit of bad influence."

That’s the time that I finally found my way around my mind and tracks me down to consciousness leading about true friendship. Since then, It influenced me so well and I can say that it is one of the great contributor in my well being, that aside from immediate family and relatives, it has another phase called true friends.

True friends are more than similarities it is closely composed of individuality, character, loyalty, and time spent. And I’ll tell you a fact that: if some friends is easy to attain so it is not as valuable as compare to the ones you have hardships through.

After graduating in 6th grade i already tried every single imported cigars available in the market on that time, time had passed since then just like friends, some had gone and some had just passed,

but definitely there will be much better who will come - someone who is more deserved to be acquired. And is worth your trust by the new character or uniqueness and unconditional loyalty they use to contribute for building a tighter bond.

And i'm happy to say that this little girls who come and goes seems to be my closest friends until in this moment of time. But well, i guess it will take another story :)

Trying hard to update

Its been more than a month I think since my last post. Its crazy, the last post I made is like I’m devastated in things happening around me. But the month that had passed is a different story, well not that perfect but it is all worth it. Because I don’t have a failing grade! Weee! looks like my secret skills is somehow effective but I don’t want to live the following semesters that way again, so wasted.

Everything is weird since the day I checked my grades online, I’ve been thinking that my grades are higher compared to the last semester. I am so lucky! Not to mention that I was victimized by pickpockets in morayta for the first time, it took away my 200 pesos and 2 usb, Nothing big time! Still, lucky that my newer phone is still with me.

I was already enrolled for the summer class. Three subjects, an extension for the sophomore year. Not that excited unlike before, all the block section happens to have a start of classes in 7:30am. This is a PROBLEM. Seriously, waking up early in the morning is soooo hard for me. How will I do this? I cant do this every single WEEKDAYS!!

Main reason that I don’t have any updates is that my pc needs a reformat -virus as usual. And it takes time before my mom let me to bring this to be repaired and to shoulder in paying the prescripted bill. I had spent almost 10 days doing nothing such as reading, eating, sleeping; Going out happens to be not include in my plans. I don’t know why, its feels like I need to be recharged: be away from crowds, pollution, whatever.

I haven’t enjoyed reading that much- this time, maybe because it’s about tech commandos soldiers, in their prestigious CADS suite, a super high tech suite that is black about 7ft. tall, 200kg in weight.The whole book goes around about World War II and that's all. Nothing interesting except for the intricate names of the guns and machines that they're using and when their captain decided to demolished the Disney Land. I don’t even know why I buy this book. Maybe because of its cover, the colorful front don’t necessarily relate in its violent content. Anyway, I finished it. Not getting my expectations for the ending.

Found Thought

I love the lyrics so much as well as the whole music, been listening to it for the past few days; over and over again.. i wish this song is longer, like 10 minutes. Haha.. sometimes i am amazed realizing that i will find out the exact words in such lyrics; the words i barely can't deliver:

HAPPY VALENTINES! :)

Here Is Gone

You and I got somethin
But it's all and then it's nuthin to me, yeah
And I got my defenses
When it comes through your intentions for me, yeah

And we wake up in the breakdown
With the things we never thought we could be, yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We got to move you darlin
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

I am no solution
To the sound of this pollution in me, yeah
And I was not the answer
So forget you ever thought it was me, yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We got to move you darlin
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

And I dont need the fallout
Of all the past that's in between us
And I'm not holding on
And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
And I can feel you falling

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah

Juana Tamad

I’m experiencing too much inferiority now, I mean, I know ever since that I am not normal like the people that I use to classify that is same as my breed. Almost all of the people that I knew and vice versa were not so far the way that I behave, but this time I can say that I’m the worst one.

Before, I was afraid that too much laziness will come back to me, it was from when I was junior to senior year in high school. But I’m not like this when I became college, It’s turning back!

My procrastinating “skills” had came to its “best” meaning, my sense of productivity had finally shut down. It is sad to say, if before I’m delaying everything, now I end up not doing anything. So my end- product will just be a “smart copy” of mine from the people who’s doing the same thing. Yes of course it’s a sign of irresponsibility and immaturity or whatever you wanna call it. But you know what? I know I have to do this specific things in certain times but I really c-a-n-n-o-t! instead of meeting the things that I should do, I use to finish something else which is not needed at the moment. It’s like I don’t care in anything and seriously, it bothers me so much.

Just a while in our classroom with classmates, everybody was so busy answering a quiz. It’s about quotations and costing for one of our major subjects. I transferred seat which is at the back, so our prof wont caught me so busy waiting. As I sit I was quiet, staring to my classmates, watching them asking to each other what or how to do it, then some was busy doing their own thing. And for goodness, I was just there the hard part is that I’m “waiting” to be through it all so that the answers will be just forwarded to me, I don’t even bother to ask “what we will do?”, “what is the one we will compute in this?”

My image in this block (section) is a perfect model to illustrate juan tamad.

And this is not just something that I build up, it’s from I had observed. Any way at least I know that I have above-normal human perception. Just to make you know that I am not stringing negativity to myself.

As I watch them, I’m busy convincing my self that everything is still under control, that I won’t have any failing grade this semester. Because I’m passing everything the only difference is that I’m not doing my own layout and I have multiple absences. (Uggh! haha) Apparently, it’s true, successfully I convinced myself, LOL. Telling that, just because it is, it doesn’t mean it would be.

Beware

The funny thing about this blog is that it doesn’t have publicity. I think I’m the only one who read this. But don’t laugh yet, I knew it even from the start. On this lifestyle I am on, people are so much into friendster and for some is multiply. I have it both even myspace and this. Those three is ongoing including public accounts, LOL. But as of now I enjoy the one that is inactive to be seen by my friends. I don’t know, it feels like doing anything you want. But of course whenever it is on the internet it doesn’t have any privacy at all. Even friendster private profile and albums can be viewed by some in their own tricky way. And its not so far, possibly also multiply. Too bad for those who are keeping their secrets or should I say secret publicity on the internet, it’s a bad idea, I recommend to delete it immediately. Don’t be fooled by the settings in the internet, PUBLIC or PRIVATE its just the same! Haha. But don’t react yet, I know there’s still a thin line between the two of that, specially for those who doesn’t have any idea. Then afterwards for those who want to ask “how?”

Don’t ask me, I don’t know. But I have an idea. Viewing private albums is actually easier that viewing private profiles. “how” again? They change certain words on the page’s URL. But as from the news underground, it has now been fixed by friendster. But here’s the latest: a new browser has been developed that when it has been downloaded, you can log in to that specific page and there you go, you can view any single private accounts you want.

But why am I saying this? Nothing, I just feel like spilling it out. And on the first place I’m the only one who’s reading this Hahaha. I know I’m not doing any sense here but at least for some say thanks to me, STALKERS! Haha. You all now have an idea, then of course the next thing you do is you will google it. But hey, I’ll tell you, the real one is somewhere else! haha

Subjective

Do you get easily embarrassed
Yes, but inconsistently. And I have nothing to with it but to be quiet. Liars
usually pissed me so easily, but still I think I am blessed with a good humility.

Describe your ideal man
I really can’t answer this question immediately. Because its not always official, I know everyone can make any kind of exceptions when it comes to the person they use to like. But certainly not a perfect man (someone who’s not tall, dark and handsome Lol. ) you know, just enough who’s not also seeking another perfect girl too. Haha

When you were in school, did you speak up in class?
I recite whenever it is graded. I don’t answer any long conversational questions to impress my classmates or my teacher. I know I’m not alone! Of course there were some who really don’t participate only if it is in their gain. hahaha

Did you sit in front or the back?
I use to sit in front when I was younger because I am blur eyed, but sometimes teachers keep transferring me at the back because I’m taller than average girls. And it depends on the subject if it really matters to me

Do you wake up easily in the morning or require coffee, exercise, or something else to get you going?
no i definitely can't wake up easily in the morning. haha. cold water does help.

What is your own personal bedtime routine?
Wash, brush, pray.

What qualities you look for in a friend. in other words, what causes you to really “click” with someone?
I think of anyone who can be true and comfortable her/himself. Someone who’s not requiring to be with.

Are you the type who plans the future or goes with the flow
I usually have a general plan but it includes going with the flow. Haha. I mean, everything you want doesn’t usually go in your way while there is something better that is bound to be one of the choices. It’s like going with the flow but still prioritizing or focused to your plans

What is a lie that you often tell yourself?
None. I’m brutally honest to myself, I analyze reality (lol) ‘cause I think it is the way it should be. I don’t know!

What is one piece of advice that was one of the best you’ve ever received?
“You become what you think about” this is somehow connected to one’s perception. It’s true literally. I don’t know where I got this but in most situations every people cannot help to think negatively to the outcome of their opinions or in things they have to do, and sometimes it leads to building up discouragement or quitting.

Tell us about something you accomplished this week that you’re happy about.
This time, I didn’t let a single opportunity pass :) but still there were some things I failed to meet. lol

About a task or project you have that you have been procrastinating about for a long time?
I’m procrastinating in almost everything! especially if it's not easy to do/research. I end up copying to someone or else I’ll end up doing it in very short time span. lol

Year 2009 Overview - Leo

In 2009, you find yourself connecting with people effortlessly as your warm-hearted actions are acknowledged and radiated back to you in a way you've never experienced before. The confident joy and happiness you freely give to others gives you the innate ability to be productive. For you, kind actions are the way to transformation and success. 

This is a perfect time for proud Leo, because you have the desire, drive and power to help society. You realize there's work to do, and you'll give a helping hand wherever you can. You are ready to align yourself with a higher level of awareness, and exhibit a regenerative attitude is about reaping the harvest by submitting to the larger purpose. What you are able to give to others directly reflects the transformation happening within you.

Your heart is in the right place, and you are likely to accomplish all that you set out to do this year. You're developing excellent skills in your own personal transformation process, and you are ready to make the conscious decision to be the best you can be. You feel secure, and the beauty of who you are shines through easily and effortlessly.