the pre-graduate

I cant explain the feeling of being totally free. For the first time in my life, a stage in studying has ended and doesn’t require a next bigger scale of being a student. The hard work really pays off. The integration from high school to college, that is like moving out literally from my mother’s home, and there’s no choice left but to be independent.

Though graduation day isn’t yet finished, I can feel the celebration over me. It isn’t about the ceremony, but the essence of this time that I’m already finished, so free from school works. Oh how this last academic year so harsh to me, I define it very stressful. But then, how can you appreciate something that is already there? You really have to make through to something just to appreciate it.  

Since 2nd week of february, when I am always out every single night; is exactly what I planned it to be. And when I say I’m out, it naturally means being with random friends. So to tell it honestly, it is my own way of making up. You know, contacting them again, stating dates and where; In one whole straight week. There might be some I had missed, but surely there were still days that is bound for them, that doesn’t actually need a keen plan.

Don’t judge me by the drinking part. It’s just that, alcohol is the best time to share with friends. But that part is now also over, I have no any other plans or schedule that will require me to set an alarm on my phone. Now, I watch movies, listen more genre of music, sleeping all day long, sometimes normal coffee breaks in the afternoon. The only things I am complying for now in school is the graduation orientation, toga fitting, etcetera, something like that.

I am gaining more weight as I know it, and I have no plan to do anything about it. I will continue eating I want and then sleep after. To tell you the truth, I hate deprivation. It’s not bad, but it and works for some but not for me. As long as all of my clothes still fits me well, eating as much as I want won’t alarm me. I literally eat full meal and then sleep Haha. I can’t blame myself and those who are doing the same, because I’m doing nothing! and sleeping and eating is a basic need! why deprive?! :)

I’ll say it again, how the last academic year very stressful. I even forgot what’s that for? I have taken it one step at a time, in that way I have been a little less pressured, and now it’s all over. You have no idea how my feeling is lighter. Doesn’t have an idea what will happen next, which is understood; the welcome sign of the real world will soon say hello to me. But at least this time, it will be up to me how soon. :)