hope

Today i write to proclaim and remind myself in the future about self-worth and self-respect. I know i haven’t started anything real yet since i graduated. Everybody is moving on, i’m willing too but maybe, for awhile, just this instance, life is giving a lesson for me and God wants me to work harder.

It’s not like I didn’t do anything at all from the last 19 months, I gave all of my efforts to start right though a lot of my plans had changed a lot. Not because I change my mind many times but because that’s what the circumstances obviously wants me to do.  I did my best in everything I do, but I’m young, fresh, and always have a very positive hope, that’s why maybe I still have a lot to learn.

I didn’t ask for something more than I can do. All I ask is the right start. Enough for me to go somewhere in life someday, a good start that can boost my hope even more about reaching one’s maximum potential.

I feel like crying now. But I promised myself the last time that I won’t cry for the same reason again. I have to let it all out as keeping it might poison my soul. I just thought the other day, this major trial had happened before, and then I truly ended up what is best for me.

This might be my place for today and it will end today, my motivations, hope and my faith in God is still the same and all of this are actually just getting better. This is a letter for myself in the future, of how faith and hope ended up for me.