steady

steadiness - freedom from wavering or indecision; constancy of resolve or conduct wordnetweb.princeton.edu/perl/webwn

It might not be new to you when I say that as of now I’m still in a solid state of being undecided.I have all of my time since February of this year, doing nothing just making out to the best of free time until graduation day hits. 9 days more before that day, and from what I know a normal bum like me should have a “plan, at least”.

Don’t’ get me wrong but, I am so glad I finished it on time hassle-free. And I’m proud to say that everything I attained now (from family to friends, academics, events, etcetera) is something that should make me ready. I mean, I’m done with academic teenage years, everything around is in a perfect state. Nothing else is to be worried about, It’s just ME - myself.

Okay, I’ll point it out - I don’t know what I’m thinking. All I know is I don’t want to have a job that I know I wouldn’t like, I don’t want to settle unto something that had just happened by chance.  Sad to say, my targeted companies who’s welcoming entry level like me isn’t hiring for this graduation year, even had added two years for the minimum age requirement. Pffft!

So the next choice will come in, either by land? Or by sea? At least some of it is hiring, but then again, I’m not doing anything. And it’s bugging me while everyone else is praying so hard to get in and start right ahead. I just found out that my plan B wasn’t detailed enough because now it leaves me with an open choice.

I just have to pray and pay some more patience I guess. I just have to leave the entire summer season in my shoulders, if I still have the chances on getting the opportunity that I always planned, then that’s better. If not, I know there’s an alternative, probably just so needy to have some time to figure it out.